The Last Post

Here. For now. I've set up a new email account and rather than try and go through this Google sites ridiculous settings to try and figure out how to transfer control of this page over to my new email, I'm just going to start over. I'll make the first post on the new Song of The Day blog a link to this old page, and probably include the link in a couple posts after that. Most likely until I get everything transferred over to my new email address. So you want some songs? Here's a little farewell playlist that will be entirely off the top of my head (which means it'll pretty much be the last ten songs I listened to before coming to the library.)

Ridiculous by Bowling For Soup

Paralyzed by The Used

Dark Blue by Jack's Mannequin

Devils Dance Floor by Flogging Molly

Two Weeks by All That Remains

Bleed It Out by Linkin Park

See you soon! Hopefully.

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Young

I did say you'd be seeing a lot of repeats in my song list didn't I? Well, if I post at all that is. This is my first SOTD post in a while and the Song of The Day is Young by Hollywood Undead. My message for you all today is to disregard the idea that age determines intellect. Just because you've been around longer doesn't mean that you're dumb as a rock compared to somebody years younger than you.
As many of you know I am not one that completely agrees with the government. Which is a nice euphemism for saying that I want the new revolution to happen very soon. Corrupt politicians, crooked justice system, those in power treading on the constitution and by proxy tarnishing the memory of our country's founders. Yeah, that's the kind of country I want to live in. No. This needs to change, and it needs to change soon.
On a completely unrelated note that I'll find a way to relate to my hating the government, the world is scheduled to end on Friday! HOORAY! SWEET FUCKING RELEASE! Yeah no. As much as I hate the way the world is, I don't want it to end, I want it to change. I don't care what initiates this worldly change, I don't care what catalyst speeds it along, just let it happen Gods.
Readers, what's your song of the day?

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Bullet

So, here's the summary of how my fucking day went.
1. Wake up
2. Go to court
3. Get No-contact order saying that I can't see or talk to Rocket for a fucking year
4. Get home, trash my room screaming profanity at the fucking walls
5. Find out my Grandma is in the hospital because of a fucking heart attack.
6. Go downstairs and vent my anger by playing Borderlands 2 and killing every. single. thing.

So world, I invite you to bend over, introduce your fist to your ass, and go fuck yourself.
Goodnight.

8-Bit World

VIDEO GAMES! More Specifically;

BORDERLANDS 2 

Yes, I went to the midnight release of Borderlands two, got a cool looking display box and my game, and I haven't touched another game since. Better than the original in every way possible in my opinion. Harder, better guns, better shields, not seeing much variety in the grenade mods so far but they do a shit-ton more damage. Using the Assassin, Zer0, currently. But I think I'm going to switch to the Gunzerker, Salvador, later on. Like when I'm halfway done with the game and feel like starting a speed run. Can't beat double damage and duel wielding for speed.
Yesterday was also mine and Rockets one year anniversary. We started dating a year ago at the air show on base. We didn't get to see eachother because her grandparents hate me and my dog attacked my mother. But I called and we talked for a bit. Then I had to go and by the time I was done it was too late to call so Stepfather and I played Borderlands 2 for a bit. He's a total dick in video games. So the Song of The Day is 8-Bit World by Your Favorite Martian, because video games.
Readers, what's your song of the day?

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Wretches And Kings

REVOLUTION!!!
The Song of The Day is Wretches And Kings by Linkin park. What's yours?

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Feel Like Home

This is one of those days where I just want to think out loud. I've got a lottta shit running through my head lately, haven't really had time to post a lot. Working on my internalization issues, figuring out that I can't blame myself for everything that goes wrong, even if there's nobody else that could rationally take the blame. Also going through some shit with Rockets family. Apparently we're going to be seeing eachother even less. Now I understand that she lives with them, but her grandparents should butt out of some aspects of her life. They have a hand in almost everything. She's home all the time, but not allowed to go walk around the property that she lives on. Not only that, but she's almost never allowed out, and when she asks they never give her a reason. I'm beginning to think that her family just generally doesn't like me. Except her older brother, he doesn't seem to have an issue with me. Her younger brother is a pain in the ass though, and constantly stalking us whenever I'm over. It's like he has some sort of crush on either me or his sister. Then there's the shit going on with court and all that bullshit. Apparently my Lawyer, Miss M, is having a constant panic attack because she couldn't get me less time. I guess she was hoping to get me 1 day with minimal community service, but we ended up getting 5 days with 3 days of community service. Still better then what I was expecting, hell I was going to ask her to push for solitary confinement. Away from all the other little psycho kids.
Anyway, the Song of The Day is Feel Like Home by Fort Minor. What's your song of the day?

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Fuck You

This weekend is just overall a shitty weekend. Mother has been a bitch for the last week and a half, Rockets grandparents suck (more on that further down the page.), and Belle throws a fit at the slightest thing. Go ahead, walk into my house, say her name, and see if she doesn't throw a fucking fit. Then I shoot you for walking into my house. I don't know you people, you could be serial rapists for all I know.
So, on to the issue I now have with Rocket's Grandparents. When she first told me her family hates her, I thought she was just overreacting. Teenage family drama like we all have. I should've believed her. Whenever I went over and they argued I always tried to listen to both sides, hear out her grandparents and they go try to comfort her. She kept pressing that they only do things because they hate her and want her miserable. I always countered that they were just old fashioned and don't want us too close. Then I learned a little backstory and realized that they have no place at all to criticize us on being too close when we've known eachother for almost a year now. Not my story to tell though. Anyway, she gets punished and screamed at because HER BROTHER sits on the computer all day and doesn't do his chores. Somehow that makes it okay for them to punish her and not let her do anything while he goes completely unpunished. I've spent all day at that house quite a few times, I've seen it. Rocket and I have done work that he was supposed to do. What does he do all day? He sits on the computer playing Minecraft and looking up gay porn with a MLP fetish. He at least has the courtesy to wear headphones, fuck him anyways. Look, I tried not to hate the kid. I tried to get along with him, but him stalking me and trying to get me alone and away from Rocket has tried my patience for a while and today is the day I decide that the next time he touches me I 'm going to break one of his fingers. Then the next time he gets Rocket in trouble, I'm going to cut one off. Sounds like a good plan to me. So then Mother and Stepfather tried telling me it's the "Boot Camp Mindset" where if one person messes up, EVERYONE gets punished. But not EVERYONE is being punished. The only one being punished in any way is Rocket. "Well you don't know that", well fuck you very much person whose opinion doesn't matter, why don't you go read something else and get the fuck off my page. It's never right for somebody who did nothing wrong to receive all the punishment while the person who committed the offense gets off clean, but hey this is America isn't it? Just another part of American life, you hear about it every day.
The point is, Rocket calls me tonight, crying. Saying that she got yelled at and she can only talk for 5 minutes, when I ask why and what happened, I learn that it's because her brother didn't do his chores, again. The same reason she got in trouble last time. Because of her completely fucktarded younger brother, and her horrible grandparents. Anybody that thinks that it's right that she's being punished can get the fuck off my page now, do not leave a comment, do not collect likes, get directly the fuck out. The Song of The Day is Fuck You by Sleeping With Sirens, yes it's a cover of the Ceelo Green song. Go ahead, complain.
And for those of you in my family that don't understand how I can be so angry, it's because this is how things are. I will not be censored. I will not calm down. The world will either bow or keep fueling my anger, and judging by how things are going right now I genuinely think it's going to continue to be the second of those options. You can either deal with it, or get the fuck out of my way. Because when I start my war, anyone that gets in front of my way is an obstacle, and obstacles will be eliminated in one way or another.
I'm at my breaking point with how this month's been going bitches and pricks, so let's hear from the audience. WHAT'S YOUR SONG OF THE DAY FUCKERS? Comment with song title and artist, and then fuck off.

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Fuck You

So before somebody goes off thinking that this is in direct implication of relationship issues let tell you that it's not. Even thought that's the entirety of what the song is about. The Song of The Day is Fuck You by Ceelo Green. Just a general message to everyone today, except my Grandparents, aunts/uncles, Rocket, Victor, The Girl, Dmitri,  and my dog. FUCK YOU. I feel a little bit better :) Seriously though, people have got me pissed off today. I don't know what it is, could be that I woke up with a spider-bite on my neck and I've had trouble breathing all day, could be that my dog ate my last pair of clean socks, but everyone (except the previously mentioned people) just needs to leave me the fuck alone. LEST YE SUFFER THE WRATH OF VIRUS!!!
So what's your song of the day Readers?

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Orphan Tears

I feel off today. Like I could be tripping Orphan Tears. No I'm not hallucinating or anything like that. The Song of The Day is Orphan Tears by Your Favorite Martian. Yep

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Ass Back Home

I never want a job that makes me travel. And if it does, then my family should be able to come with. The Song of The Day is Ass Back Home by Gym Class Heroes.
What's your song of the day?
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Complicated

I know I've already used this song this year, but it's all that fits. Or maybe It's Complicated by A Day To Remember, or Out of Time by A Day To Remember. Whatever though. The Song of The Day is Complicated by Your Favorite Martian. Because right now, that's all that fits. Mainly the chorus and rap part. Rocket and I are having issues. She did something horrible, and lied to me about it. I think I can forgive her, but I can't trust her. Not for a while. It's kind of funny. She never trusted me even though I never gave her reason not to, and I trusted her with everything. Now she's broken that trust, and her promises. It's just so complicated.
Readers, what's your song of the day?

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Bleed It Out/Waiting For The End

There are those times when it seems like nobody around you knows what the fuck is really going on. This past month has been one of those times for me. The Songs of The Day are Bleed It Out and Waiting For The End, both by Linkin Park. Yes it's a song about suicide, but I'm far from that. Suicide is for the weak, and I'm not as weak as my other self seems to think. No, this is the song of the day because sometimes you have to do something drastic to make people realize what the real problem is. Now it seems like everybody in my family that is involved or has taken interest in this situation is just blaming my actions on my friends and Rocket, and that's not right. My father says that I was "just chasing some girl" (to put it nicely, I'd not repeat what he called her.), which sucks because she was looking forward to possibly meeting him this week, but after all that was said today I'm not sure that I want him here. He doesn't understand that all of this has nothing to do with the bitter feud that he and my mother have. He doesn't get that this isn't just because I live with somebody other than him. I don't live with him because I know that I'll never live up to his expectations, but it seems that even here I can't escape being a huge fucking disappointment to the bastard. So I don't know what to do to make him understand that I don't need somebody else flipping shit on me when I've pretty much kicked the crap out of myself every day since I failed my friends. He doesn't have that guilt, he's never let anybody down the way I have.
Then there's my Grandmother, one of the only 3 people that doesn't make me feel fucking useless because of this. No, she just makes me feel more guilty. There are only three things that really hurt me about all this. They are, in this order, letting down my grandparents, not being able to see Rocket as much, and knowing that my feeling of overall failure is justified. My Grandma and Grandpa (on my fathers side) are the people that are my inspiration to succeed. Even before I met Rocket, or my brothers in Florida, I knew I had to be famous to pay them back. They are first on my list of people to help when I make it. Of course my grandmother always wanted me to be a doctor, lawyer, or scientist, so a profession in the arts was out of the question to her, so I changed my plan a bit to where I could still be happy without being a disappointment. I know it sounds petty, but they are some of the most important people in my life, and I can't let them down. I'm seriously afraid that they might die if I go to juvie. I'm not fucking kidding.
In other news I "finished" my new mask. It's kind of a demonic skull looking face. It was originally orange, so I repainted it all white, and I wear it with a kind of ninja hood behind it so that the black and white contrast. I'm going to splatter it with red paint to look like blood splatter. It's gonna be sick.
Readers, what's your song of the day?


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Till I Collapse

A lot of you keep telling me to just give up. That I've got no reason to keep fighting. Hell, I was telling myself that for a couple weeks, but that's not who I am anymore. I'm a lyricist, a weaver of webs with words and music. If only I could put more out than just the words though. That doesn't matter, what matters is that this is what I do, I write, and I'm going to keep writing until my legs fall out from underneath me. Or the ground that I stand on, whichever comes first. Family was against my pursuit in the arts until recently, now that I may not have a lot of time left to pursue my dream of owning a guitar shop and writing for a famous band. Even if all of us know that this isn't the end of the world, we all know how I take things. I'll either leave the house every day for hours on end to gods-know-where, or I'll give up on everything and never leave my room and probably try to kill myself a couple times (third time's the charm right? not funny....).
The Song of The Day is Till I Collapse by Eminem, because I'm gonna keep at this songwriting thing until I die, not that I intend to die, I'm going to live forever as a god of music. Whether it's from my personal voice, or just the words from my pen, somebody that I don't know is going to remember me. You will remember me.
Readers, what's your song of the day?

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Dysfunctional

I am one fucked up dude.

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Complicated

I had some trouble selecting my Song of The Day for today. Then I realized that not much happened today that I could relate in a song, so I'm just going to feature a new favorite of mine as the Song of The Day, which is Complicated by Your Favorite Martian. If you watch =3 or any other of Ray William Johnson's channels, then you know about YFM and YFMTS (YEAH!). Watch the music video for this song. Fucking do it. I'll know if you don't. I'm creepy like that. Sentence fragments. Yeah.
I'm so ready for tomorrow. I really just want to sleep right now so that it'll get here faster so I can see Rocket. Seriously, you have no fucking clue. NO FUCKING CLUE PEOPLE.
Readers, what's your song of the day?

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Song of The Week

Wow, how did I ever forget about the Song of The Week post? As previous, this and the Song of The Day will be two separate posts. The Song of The Week is Kick Monday (In The Nutsack) by Watsky & Mody feat. Wax. Now I know this was Monday's SOTD, but get the fuck over it. I'm the writer, you're the reader, and nobody is forcing you to agree with me. Not yet at least... But yeah, I kicked this week in the nutsack. Saturday is going to be great no matter how many people actually show up, and I learned a couple new songs. Such as Jump by Van Halen. Yeah.
Readers, what's your song of the week?

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Kick Monday (In The Nutsack)

The Song of The Day is Kick Monday (In The Nutsack)by Watsky & Mody ft.Wax . Because that is exactly what I intend to do. So the weekend was great, I almost died a couple times, three exactly, got beaten down with my own cross, got 12 new books, currently reading 4 of them. Un Lun Dun is pretty cool so far, granted I'm only on page 32. Rocket and I are planning our "Poor Man's Prom", I was going to take her to the real one but I kinda got expelled and that tends to fuck with my participating in school events. So we're planning our own. We're having it at my place, but not really inside my house. Aside from the kitchen and bathrooms, the entire house will be cut off from everybody but my inner circle of friends (Rocket, Savvy, Bass Man, The Trojan, and my sister Mix. Not that she's invited, she just has to stay home to watch the baby while the party is going on.). I think it's gonna go great! I've got the layout planned, everybody should bring a party dish (by dish I mean a plate of food or something like that for all to share, not an actual dish like a bowl or plate or something like that.). Then Rocket had the idea for Karaoke, and I realized that I can totally hook that up. I have a program on my computer that removes the words from any audio file I choose, but it deletes the original. Doesn't matter cuz I can just make two copies of the song before I edit the original one. Anyway, we're going to hook up my audio board to my amp, plug in whatever I have the karaoke files saved on to the audio board, then plug in a mic and let it play out. That with everything else I have planned for it will be pretty cool.
Readers, what's your song of the day?

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Love The Way You Lie

Now, this is not the Song of The Day, it's just another badass song that I thought should be shared with the masses. Yesterday I was talking with Dmitri about doing a rock or metal cover of an Eminem or D12 song. Then I'm scrolling through some music online and noticed something that I thought was really badass. Then I listened to it, and I thought it was even more badass than my original assessment. Love The Way You Lie by A Skylit Drive from Punk Goes Pop Volume 4. Look it up.
Readers, any songs that you think the others should know? Feel free to post them in the comments section below, if it is still down there.

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Sing For The Moment

Because I'm the bad guy. Because in the eyes of those in control, I'll always be a bad guy. Which, a year ago I would've been psyched about, because a year ago I didn't have as much to lose as I do now. Now I've got a dream, I had a future, I have real love, and I have more than two real friends. I had a place I belonged, and a group I belonged to. So today's Song of The Day is Sing For The Moment by my hero, Eminem. Eminem is one of my greatest inspirations because he's a guy that's been persecuted for his music, his actions, and what he believes in, and he just decides "fuck that shit" and gets up, gets clean, and gets back to making music, doing what he does, and standing up for what he believes in. He's a man that got his life back in order after everything turned to shit for him. And this one song, it's a reminder. It lets me know that I don't need to be thinking about my future right now, no matter what the rest of the world says, I just need to live for the moment. That doesn't mean I'm going to be careless, I'm just going to start having fun with what I can do in my life now.
Readers, what's your song of the day?

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Miserable At Best

Let's start with the last couple of days
3/8/12-War by Sick Puppies
3/9/12- The Diary by Hollywood Undead
3/10/12- Not Afraid by Eminem

And now today. The Song of The Day is Miserable At Best by Mayday Parade. I don't want Rocket and I to have to wait for the weekend just to see eachother once a week. First I should tell you why we'll only be seeing eachother once a week; I got expelled from school. The hearing was bullshit, and the one bitch wouldn't even let me finish my defense. They completely ignored the character references, my otherwise perfect record, and my intentions. They weren't even going to give me a second thought, they knew they were going to expel me before anybody even showed up that day. The hearing was just to fuck with me, give me some false hope that I could somehow revive my future. But no. Everything I had ever planned out is now nothing. I won't be able to get into any college, and I can't get a job. So, fuck you very much for my false trial, and I'll see you fuckers in a year. I know what I did was wrong but there are other factors that should have come into play before you made your decision.
Back to why my song of the day is depressing and sad and shit. Apparently there were rumors going around that Rocket was cheating on me, I had no way of knowing whether or not they were true or not (I refused to believe that they were, which they aren't), so I was kinda fucked up for a bit. But I went over yesterday and helped her and her family out with the cows and sheep, and we talked. At the end of everything, no matter how great the day was, or how much fun we had, I was just sad. Because we'll have to wait 7 days to do anything together again, and even then it's just one day, not even a full day. Whenever one of us goes to the others house it's only for a maximum of 6 hours. Compared to the time we spent together during the week at school. It's not enough, and I can't stop thinking about the possibilities. That one day she'll decide she can't wait to be able to see me, and just goes off with someone else. I know she wouldn't think about it now, but a lot can happen in a year, and I don't know... I don't like thinking it, but The Others won't shut up. I love her, and I trust her with my soul, and I don't consciously doubt her, but the thought won't go away. Not to mention this fucking song keeps playing on my Droid. Fuck you Droid, just fuck you.
Readers, what's your song of the day?

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