How To Save A Life

Some people just aren't meant to play the hero. Some of us just can't help the people we care about the most. Some of us just don't know how to save the life of someone we love. The Song of The Day is How To Save A Life by The Fray, and for those of you that don't know, this song was written for the lead singers friend in rehab who killed himself. Now you know why the song exists, let's find out why it's here. Actually, I'll leave you all to wonder, I've got better people to talk to. Somebody that I care about and that I'm not going to risk ruining a relationship with just because of a stupid song. If that's what the universe wants, then the universe can go fuck itself.

Readers, what's your song of the day?

Music=Life

Perfect

To my Father. I'm sorry I forgot your birthday, but think of this as a balance. The year you forgot mine has flipped sides, and I can almost guarantee it won't happen again. I'm also sorry that I didn't stay with you in Pennsylvania. The reason why I left is because I had become what I didn't want to be. Sure, I learned to fight, to defend myself and my friends. I learned about honor and respect. I also learned who I wanted to be. I wanted to be a rocker. Not just another high school sports player. Not the wide receiver who scores the winning touchdowns for the teams. Not the wrestler who sees everyone as another enemy. I wanted to shape myself rather than have somebody else try to shape who I was going to be. Your influence, along with Brandi, David, Alex and Daisy, helped me to decide what is best for myself. I'm not wasting my time by doing what I want, I'm just trying to give you a reason to be proud of your son. And I haven't failed yet. This band is going to work. If I thought I could balance the Band, dating Rocket, sports, and good grades all on the same scale, then I'd try it. But I can't be perfect for everyone. I've tried, and somebody ends up getting hurt, emotionally and physically. I know you disapprove of my musical pursuit, and that I'd rather write poetry and songs rather than play football and watch sports, but our playbooks don't seem to agree. The song Of The Day is Perfect By Simple Plan.

Readers, what's your song of the day?

Music=Life

The Last Fight

The Last Fight, Tears Don't Fall, I knew it would be Bullet For My Valentine Day, aside from the fact that I woke up with Hungry Like The Wolf by Duran Duran stuck in my fucked up little mind. I didn't expect it to be this one though. An overdose would have still been way easier, but then I wouldn't have any more time with Rocket, and that would have not been cool at all. But this should be the last time that I and The Girl combat eachother with verbal arrows, some sharp enough to pierce even her emotional armor... I'm always worried that Rocket will read these things and think that she's a second or something. True, The Girl came first. True, I had feelings for her. But previous events had changed that, and even IF she told the truth and wasn't playing me, I still don't trust her as much as I used to, and the emotion towards her is dead in me, rotting somewhere deep inside the recesses of my twisted soul that I don't have (kinda sounds like a Disturbed song). Rocket, you're not a second. You're not a consolation prize. You're you, and that's all you have to be. I even accept the voices in your head with you ;) Now, I'm going to go waste time on the internet while playing guitar and drowning my thoughts in some old school Black Sabbath (Ozzy's Sabbath) and Motley Crue.

Readers, what's your song of the day? And what's your take on my situation? (not asking if I made the right "Choice", because it wasn't a choice, it was a feeling that I acted upon.)

Music=Life, my mind=fucked

Nothin Good About Goodbye

Nothing makes sense anymore. Feelings conflicting in ways they shouldn't. I love Rocket, I know I do. Then why does it hurt so much to lose The Girl? Why does it feel like I have a permanent knot around my throat, restricting my breath. I couldn't think all day. The sadness and excitement from the events of yesterday. The most incredible first date, turned into the worst night I could've imagined. All because of my ignorance. The fact that I didn't believe. But it's too late, The Girl is done with me. And all I can offer is a stupid fucking song. I allow myself only as much sadness as I can handle for the moment, stowing the rest in the back of my mind to be released in a pathetic flood of tears during the night. No matter how much I outwardly blame this all on her, I know it started with me. I should've never told her that I loved her. Should've never made a promise I knew I would break. The Song of The Moment is Nothin' Good About Goodbye by Hinder. Even if both of us fell from the same cliff, we reached the bottom a day apart, and I'm sorry for it. "No need for bloodshed", you were right, but that's why they make painkillers. Unfortunately, I woke up. Guess I can't just give up because I was an ignorant asshole, but thank the Gods that I did, because I've got Rocket. I keep comparing it to what The Girl did to me. Went out with one of my best friends when she knew how I felt about her, and later on told me that it was just so she didn't hurt me. I don't know whether or not to believe her about that, but it doesn't matter what I think now does it? Because I've lost one of my greatest friends, and somebody I could always talk to. She shouldn't've been mad that I found somebody, after she was telling me her plan to find somebody to go out with at her new school. Well now there's nothing holding her back.

Readers, these are the words to describe my song of the moment choice. The song of the day will be better. Just know that currently I hold no malice towards The Girl, just anger towards myself for what I said, but not what I did. I found somebody that I can trust and love. And I shall not apologize for that, only my words.

Music=Life

If It Means A Lot To You

Can I have a drumroll? No? Go To hell. This is the one hundredth post! BITCHES I LASTED LONGER THAN YOU THOUGHT I WOULD! Granted I should have over 365 different posts right now as I've been doing this for over a year now, but I missed a lot okay? On to main event of the night!

How many of you have a goal? A dream? An object of your desire? I don't know your goals, and to be honest, I don't care about them. There are 6 people that I will help to achieve their goals. My band, my friends Victor and Camron, and The Girl. All their stuff is just as important, if not more so, as mine. And my goal? Just to see The Girl again. To actually try the next time. Which brings me to my Song of The Day. The Song OF the Day is If It Means A Lot To you by A Day To Remember. Victor said to me once that he thinks this song fits me. The first time I heard it, all I could picture was this happening to me. I'm off somewhere making people sing and feel my music, and my relationship is dying. I didn't need to go to the show, but I wanted to. And because of that, she leaves. That's what I see whenever I hear this song. The Future. Are there songs that make you see your future as it could be? Not what you want, but what could happen. Our futures are whatever we strive to make them. If you stick to your goals, stay on the right path, and don't get distracted, you will have bettered yourself and (hopefully) achieved your goal. I will achieve mine. Through practice and mastering the skills and methods of rock and the channeling of spiritual energy through music, I will be on the road to see her again. To form an actual relationship, one that isn't just over texts.

Readers, don't fuck up. Cuz everything after that moment that you wreck is going to seem a lot harder. Now, What's your song of the day?

Music=Life

Worst Day Ever

"I feel like I'm living the worst day, I feel like you're gone. And every day is the worst day ever."

A song about missing someone. Perfect. Anyway, my "parents" dyed my hair black today. It's cool. Gonna spike it like fucking Goku from Dragon Ball Z. And not the newer ones towards the Boo Saga, the old ones. Before the art got changed. Winning? I think so.

Readers, what's your song of the day? Mine is Worst Day Ever by Simple Plan.

Music=Life, Me=Missing her a bit more than I should be, considering.

Last To Know

Have you ever had to tell one of your friends that their girlfriend/boyfriend is cheating on them? Have you ever felt that pain, felt responsible for something you had nothing to do with? It sucks. Especially when they're the last to know. Song of the Day is Last To Know by Three Days Grace. How do you tell them and expect your friendship to survive, how do you expect them to survive? He hates his life, and never had much to talk about, until he met her. I'm worried for my friend, but I hate the girl. I have the thought that nobody should be able to get away with hurting my friends, but bound by my family's rules I can't attack a girl. So how do I get her back? How do I "avenge" my friend? Rumors are for the weak with little imagination, all her friends knew she was cheating on him and never said anything, so there's nothing I can do involving them.... Attack the one she was cheating with? Not a good idea, football players tend to hit really hard. I guess there's not much to do but hope he gets over it and realizes she's just another preppy bitch and easily forgotten. I hate high school, it causes this. All the overachievers and jocks find whatever small difference there is in anyone and exploit it, making them seem weirder and weirder to the other students. Eventually those that are thought to be "weird" or different in any way are totally isolated. Psychology and media tells us that they do it just to make themselves feel better, to compensate for what makes them different, but I see no difference in any of them. Perhaps a line from the song From Heads Unworthy by Rise Against fits this a bit better, "except for you and me love, everyones the same". I think that these kids do all this just to be mean. No reason other than that. They aren't compensating for a difference. Do the mentally challenged make fun of us because we're different and they feel the need to compensate for their disability? (I fucking dare you to point out what's wrong with that comparison, I will find you, and destroy you) No they don't. Fuck this, nothing is real, the government did it, aliens, bigfoot. I don't feel like thinking.

Readers, what's your song of the day?

Music=Life, Cheaters=Pathetic, Society=Wrong