Fuck You

This weekend is just overall a shitty weekend. Mother has been a bitch for the last week and a half, Rockets grandparents suck (more on that further down the page.), and Belle throws a fit at the slightest thing. Go ahead, walk into my house, say her name, and see if she doesn't throw a fucking fit. Then I shoot you for walking into my house. I don't know you people, you could be serial rapists for all I know.
So, on to the issue I now have with Rocket's Grandparents. When she first told me her family hates her, I thought she was just overreacting. Teenage family drama like we all have. I should've believed her. Whenever I went over and they argued I always tried to listen to both sides, hear out her grandparents and they go try to comfort her. She kept pressing that they only do things because they hate her and want her miserable. I always countered that they were just old fashioned and don't want us too close. Then I learned a little backstory and realized that they have no place at all to criticize us on being too close when we've known eachother for almost a year now. Not my story to tell though. Anyway, she gets punished and screamed at because HER BROTHER sits on the computer all day and doesn't do his chores. Somehow that makes it okay for them to punish her and not let her do anything while he goes completely unpunished. I've spent all day at that house quite a few times, I've seen it. Rocket and I have done work that he was supposed to do. What does he do all day? He sits on the computer playing Minecraft and looking up gay porn with a MLP fetish. He at least has the courtesy to wear headphones, fuck him anyways. Look, I tried not to hate the kid. I tried to get along with him, but him stalking me and trying to get me alone and away from Rocket has tried my patience for a while and today is the day I decide that the next time he touches me I 'm going to break one of his fingers. Then the next time he gets Rocket in trouble, I'm going to cut one off. Sounds like a good plan to me. So then Mother and Stepfather tried telling me it's the "Boot Camp Mindset" where if one person messes up, EVERYONE gets punished. But not EVERYONE is being punished. The only one being punished in any way is Rocket. "Well you don't know that", well fuck you very much person whose opinion doesn't matter, why don't you go read something else and get the fuck off my page. It's never right for somebody who did nothing wrong to receive all the punishment while the person who committed the offense gets off clean, but hey this is America isn't it? Just another part of American life, you hear about it every day.
The point is, Rocket calls me tonight, crying. Saying that she got yelled at and she can only talk for 5 minutes, when I ask why and what happened, I learn that it's because her brother didn't do his chores, again. The same reason she got in trouble last time. Because of her completely fucktarded younger brother, and her horrible grandparents. Anybody that thinks that it's right that she's being punished can get the fuck off my page now, do not leave a comment, do not collect likes, get directly the fuck out. The Song of The Day is Fuck You by Sleeping With Sirens, yes it's a cover of the Ceelo Green song. Go ahead, complain.
And for those of you in my family that don't understand how I can be so angry, it's because this is how things are. I will not be censored. I will not calm down. The world will either bow or keep fueling my anger, and judging by how things are going right now I genuinely think it's going to continue to be the second of those options. You can either deal with it, or get the fuck out of my way. Because when I start my war, anyone that gets in front of my way is an obstacle, and obstacles will be eliminated in one way or another.
I'm at my breaking point with how this month's been going bitches and pricks, so let's hear from the audience. WHAT'S YOUR SONG OF THE DAY FUCKERS? Comment with song title and artist, and then fuck off.

Music=Life

No More Sorrow

Make the lies stop. I can't take it, I can't handle it. Now, I'm liar, and a damn good one. But the best lies are based off of truths. And it's because of this that I never forget one of my lies. But these people, the lies are always changing. There are rules to these things. Are you lost in your lies? Do you honestly think I don't realize when the story changes every time I ask? Just tell the truth. The Song of The Day is No More Sorrow by Linkin Park.

On a side note, my english accent is coming back and I haven't the faintest idea why. I should really be asleep right now, it's like 10:30 or some shit. Whatever. Gonna wear my badass new ring tomorrow along with my spiked pyramid. I don't know why, but I always seem to play better when wearing a necklace or chain. Haven't tried a dog collar yet, and don't think I will any time soon. A bunch of people in the crowds I hang with. Which reminds me! This chick I know, we'll call her Rocket, cuz when she has one of those fucking Monster drinks, she goes off dude. Like, speed or some shit. She get's really hyper is what I'm trying to say. Anyway, Rocket had my name written in Nordic Runes on her left arm. As soon as I saw them I knew what they spelled out. VIRUS. I've known the basic runes for years. But I played dumb, and lied. And I feel bad, cuz apparently this chick really likes me. And I like her too. But it would feel wrong. Because I still have feelings for The Girl. And going out with Rocket while I still have feelings for The Girl would make me a cheater by my definition. But The Girl has some 12th grade pedophile she can turn to. And for all I know she's just been fucking with my head the last 3 years. I don't know. I'll wait a while. Find out the situation with The Girl, if she's done with me, then I send her the song and we don't speak again until the Pedo-School Boy rapes her or some shit. And Then I have to cut off his dick. I think That should be the punishment for all male sex offenders. You raped a school girl? Lose your dick.

I talk to Rocket tomorrow about all this. And then, I'll try talking to The Girl.

Readers, what's your song of the day?

Music=Life

(was supposed to be posted on 9/12/11, but people are watching my site, so I have to wait to post things after dark. FUCK YOU MONITORS!!!! "I fight for the users" my ass!)

My Darkest Hour

Lately I've been doubting everything. And everyone. Mainly myself, which is why I've started my whole reconstruction thing y'know. After high school I'm supposed to go down to New Mexico (I completely forgot why we chose New Mexico or how that was decided.) to meet up with The Girl. But what if I get there, and we meet again, and I'm just some huge disappointment? What if she sees pictures of me or something before then and decides not to go? My Darkest Hour? Getting there and being right about everything again. Song of The Day is My Darkest Hour by Scary Kids Scaring Kids. I don't want the years to go by and for me to be the same disappointment that I am now or was a year ago. I want to be different. To be like my friend Victor. Almost every girl I thought (or was told) I had a chance with wanted to go out with him (the exact numbers being 3 out of 4. All this was of course after the thing with The Girl and one of my best friends. Starting to think I surround myself with the wrong people if every girl I feel remotely attracted to in any way goes after one of my friends. Now that I think of it, there was one girl who ended up with my friend Taylor. What the fuck.) I want to be the guy that can steal the heart of any girl, but doesn't. Like the people in those retarded chick-flicks my mom and sister are always watching. All of this is of course unrealistic as I am doomed to spend my days in an unchangeable recurring situation. I'm a stepping stone. If that's the right phrase. Anyway, I'm not even supposed to be awake right now, time to go off on some sleeping pills. Chances of accidental OD because the bottle doesn't give dosage amounts? Moderately high. But I'm not dead yet so fuck off world.

Readers, do I even need to ask what your song of the day is?

Music=Life

Short Stories with Tragic Endings

This is the song you told me to look up before you left. And I did. And now it's here, I'm still in Florida, and you're there. Now, I've probably already brought this to attention, but the end of the song is the part that kills. Here's the lyrics from 6:00 to the end.

Did you ever look, did you ever see that one person,
and the subtle way that they do these things and it hurts so much?
So much like choking down the embers of a great blaze.
It's that moment when your eyes seem to spread aspersions
and to scream confessions at the insipid sky parting clouds.
You let this one person come down in the most perfect moment.
And it breaks my heart to know the only reason you are here now is a reminder of what I'll never have...
I'll never have... I'll never...
Standing so close knowing that it kills me to breathe you in...
standing so close knowing that it kills me to breathe you in...
But this table for one has become bearable.
I now take comfort in this, and for this, I cherish you.
Did you ever look, did you ever see that one person
and the subtle way that they do these things and it hurts so much?
So much like choking down the embers of a great blaze.
It's that moment when your eyes seem to spread aspersions
and to scream confessions at the insipid sky parting clouds.
And you let this one person come down...come down...I cherish you...I cherish you.
Just say that you would do the same for me...
just say you would do the same for me...
just say you would do the same...
just say you would do the same, for me
For as much as I love Autumn,
I'm giving myself to Ashes.

The part that bothers me is in red (I like red, it's a good color, never lets you down.). Mainly cuz I don't understand what it means, if it means anything that you told me to look it up before you left. If it was some sort of leaving message, or just a song. Either way, I shouldn't've looked it up.

Fuck, you're not even gonna read this anyway.

Music=Life

(Song is Short Stories With tragic Endings by From Autumn to Ashes if anyone wants to look it up)

As You're Falling Down

Don't really care what the lyrics mean to this song, it's open to interpret for you if you want. I just think it's fucking awesome. This is one of the original Escape The Fate songs, from their five song release before they signed. Found it on itunes for 4.99, and have listened to this song and Dragging Dead Bodies In Blue Bags Up Really Long Hills probably 500 times in the last 6 days. With them though I also got Paper Wings by Rise Against, was getting it for a mixed cd for a friend, and Tribute by Tenacious D. Today I plan on getting Stupid MF by Mindless Self Indulgence. THANK YOU CAMILLE!!! Been working on getting my voice to where I can scream like Ronnie, I think it's going well. Broken Sanity is making no progress I'm sorry to say. Vic just got back from a long vacation. I can put that on here because the guys will never read this XD Anyway, song of the day is As You're Falling Down by Escape The Fate.

So reader, what's your song of the day?

Music=Life