The Song of The Day is The Last Song by Foo Fighters. For my father, because this is the last Song that I will dedicate to you. I'm done with you.
Music=Life
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Wednesday, March 14, 2012
Tuesday, March 13, 2012
Island
Topic one. Don't get married to somebody with children if you're not ready to be a parent. My Mother's Husband, no longer known as the stepfather because that insinuates that he's a parent, really wants nothing to do with any of us. Not me, not my sister, and not his daughter. His reason for being here? As far as I can tell he doesn't have one. He never has anything nice to say about anyone, not me, not my sisters, not my mother. He bitches about everything and has told me before that he doesn't need any of us (which I find to be completely untrue because he can't really clean up after himself, as displayed by his and my mothers room.). And he displays no outward affection towards my mother, mainly just sexual actions towards her. Just what I see though. Maybe I'm wrong, or maybe I'm right again.
Now I've been getting this a lot. "Why'd you try to run?". Well, the answer is because of all of the bullshit that daily life requires us to deal with. Then there's my biological father, "I just don't understand why you don't want to live with me. Look at all your friends up here, they're all going to be successful and not a total fuck up. And somehow that's all because they live near me." (okay so that's not exactly what he says, but in a nutshell that's what I'm getting from it.) And the answer, which I didn't want to say before because I really didn't want to hurt his feelings , but his constant referring to Rocket as just another "piece of ass" (do it again old man, I fucking dare you.) has pushed me beyond caring about how he feels. So the real answer comes in three parts. First of all, you keep fucking comparing me to EVERYONE. I know I'm not who YOU want me to be, but I'm working towards being who I want to be, and in my life that's what matters. Part 2, you don't care what I want to do, you're going to push me into what you did as a kid. You're going to do whatever it takes to make me just like you, and no matter how many times you tell me not to be like you you're just going to keep pushing me towards it. And that's what pisses you off the most right now, that I'm not just like you. Lastly, and this one will really hurt, it's that you're fucking boring. Everything is the same with you. Maybe I'll regret saying all this later, but right now it feels pretty damn good.
Next up, now that I've gone off on my little rant that has absolutely nothing to do with my Song of The Day, is my Song of The Day which happens to be Island by The Starting Line. Because that's where we'd be right now. Some little island or coastal area in the South. In a way I'm kinda glad they caught us, but now I've sampled freedom. I want more. I want that feeling of not having to report or call in to anyone, or having to leave Rocket at 3:00 pm every day. And I know I've only got a couple years until then, but a year is a long time, and I know how things turn out, but no matter how positive it is if we stay, I can't wait. I'm an impatient little bastard.
So readers, what's your song of the day?
Music=Life
Now I've been getting this a lot. "Why'd you try to run?". Well, the answer is because of all of the bullshit that daily life requires us to deal with. Then there's my biological father, "I just don't understand why you don't want to live with me. Look at all your friends up here, they're all going to be successful and not a total fuck up. And somehow that's all because they live near me." (okay so that's not exactly what he says, but in a nutshell that's what I'm getting from it.) And the answer, which I didn't want to say before because I really didn't want to hurt his feelings , but his constant referring to Rocket as just another "piece of ass" (do it again old man, I fucking dare you.) has pushed me beyond caring about how he feels. So the real answer comes in three parts. First of all, you keep fucking comparing me to EVERYONE. I know I'm not who YOU want me to be, but I'm working towards being who I want to be, and in my life that's what matters. Part 2, you don't care what I want to do, you're going to push me into what you did as a kid. You're going to do whatever it takes to make me just like you, and no matter how many times you tell me not to be like you you're just going to keep pushing me towards it. And that's what pisses you off the most right now, that I'm not just like you. Lastly, and this one will really hurt, it's that you're fucking boring. Everything is the same with you. Maybe I'll regret saying all this later, but right now it feels pretty damn good.
Next up, now that I've gone off on my little rant that has absolutely nothing to do with my Song of The Day, is my Song of The Day which happens to be Island by The Starting Line. Because that's where we'd be right now. Some little island or coastal area in the South. In a way I'm kinda glad they caught us, but now I've sampled freedom. I want more. I want that feeling of not having to report or call in to anyone, or having to leave Rocket at 3:00 pm every day. And I know I've only got a couple years until then, but a year is a long time, and I know how things turn out, but no matter how positive it is if we stay, I can't wait. I'm an impatient little bastard.
So readers, what's your song of the day?
Music=Life
Monday, March 12, 2012
Sing For The Moment
Because I'm the bad guy. Because in the eyes of those in control, I'll always be a bad guy. Which, a year ago I would've been psyched about, because a year ago I didn't have as much to lose as I do now. Now I've got a dream, I had a future, I have real love, and I have more than two real friends. I had a place I belonged, and a group I belonged to. So today's Song of The Day is Sing For The Moment by my hero, Eminem. Eminem is one of my greatest inspirations because he's a guy that's been persecuted for his music, his actions, and what he believes in, and he just decides "fuck that shit" and gets up, gets clean, and gets back to making music, doing what he does, and standing up for what he believes in. He's a man that got his life back in order after everything turned to shit for him. And this one song, it's a reminder. It lets me know that I don't need to be thinking about my future right now, no matter what the rest of the world says, I just need to live for the moment. That doesn't mean I'm going to be careless, I'm just going to start having fun with what I can do in my life now.
Readers, what's your song of the day?
Music=Life
Readers, what's your song of the day?
Music=Life
Sunday, March 11, 2012
Miserable At Best
Let's start with the last couple of days
3/8/12-War by Sick Puppies
3/9/12- The Diary by Hollywood Undead
3/10/12- Not Afraid by Eminem
And now today. The Song of The Day is Miserable At Best by Mayday Parade. I don't want Rocket and I to have to wait for the weekend just to see eachother once a week. First I should tell you why we'll only be seeing eachother once a week; I got expelled from school. The hearing was bullshit, and the one bitch wouldn't even let me finish my defense. They completely ignored the character references, my otherwise perfect record, and my intentions. They weren't even going to give me a second thought, they knew they were going to expel me before anybody even showed up that day. The hearing was just to fuck with me, give me some false hope that I could somehow revive my future. But no. Everything I had ever planned out is now nothing. I won't be able to get into any college, and I can't get a job. So, fuck you very much for my false trial, and I'll see you fuckers in a year. I know what I did was wrong but there are other factors that should have come into play before you made your decision.
Back to why my song of the day is depressing and sad and shit. Apparently there were rumors going around that Rocket was cheating on me, I had no way of knowing whether or not they were true or not (I refused to believe that they were, which they aren't), so I was kinda fucked up for a bit. But I went over yesterday and helped her and her family out with the cows and sheep, and we talked. At the end of everything, no matter how great the day was, or how much fun we had, I was just sad. Because we'll have to wait 7 days to do anything together again, and even then it's just one day, not even a full day. Whenever one of us goes to the others house it's only for a maximum of 6 hours. Compared to the time we spent together during the week at school. It's not enough, and I can't stop thinking about the possibilities. That one day she'll decide she can't wait to be able to see me, and just goes off with someone else. I know she wouldn't think about it now, but a lot can happen in a year, and I don't know... I don't like thinking it, but The Others won't shut up. I love her, and I trust her with my soul, and I don't consciously doubt her, but the thought won't go away. Not to mention this fucking song keeps playing on my Droid. Fuck you Droid, just fuck you.
Readers, what's your song of the day?
Music=Life
3/8/12-War by Sick Puppies
3/9/12- The Diary by Hollywood Undead
3/10/12- Not Afraid by Eminem
And now today. The Song of The Day is Miserable At Best by Mayday Parade. I don't want Rocket and I to have to wait for the weekend just to see eachother once a week. First I should tell you why we'll only be seeing eachother once a week; I got expelled from school. The hearing was bullshit, and the one bitch wouldn't even let me finish my defense. They completely ignored the character references, my otherwise perfect record, and my intentions. They weren't even going to give me a second thought, they knew they were going to expel me before anybody even showed up that day. The hearing was just to fuck with me, give me some false hope that I could somehow revive my future. But no. Everything I had ever planned out is now nothing. I won't be able to get into any college, and I can't get a job. So, fuck you very much for my false trial, and I'll see you fuckers in a year. I know what I did was wrong but there are other factors that should have come into play before you made your decision.
Back to why my song of the day is depressing and sad and shit. Apparently there were rumors going around that Rocket was cheating on me, I had no way of knowing whether or not they were true or not (I refused to believe that they were, which they aren't), so I was kinda fucked up for a bit. But I went over yesterday and helped her and her family out with the cows and sheep, and we talked. At the end of everything, no matter how great the day was, or how much fun we had, I was just sad. Because we'll have to wait 7 days to do anything together again, and even then it's just one day, not even a full day. Whenever one of us goes to the others house it's only for a maximum of 6 hours. Compared to the time we spent together during the week at school. It's not enough, and I can't stop thinking about the possibilities. That one day she'll decide she can't wait to be able to see me, and just goes off with someone else. I know she wouldn't think about it now, but a lot can happen in a year, and I don't know... I don't like thinking it, but The Others won't shut up. I love her, and I trust her with my soul, and I don't consciously doubt her, but the thought won't go away. Not to mention this fucking song keeps playing on my Droid. Fuck you Droid, just fuck you.
Readers, what's your song of the day?
Music=Life
Monday, March 5, 2012
Stereo Hearts
I can't write a love song. I've tried, trust me I've tried, but the words are never enough. I could get to the third verse and sing it out, and I'll hate it. The muses just don't want me to write a love song. Which only makes things more complicated, because that's all I feel like writing. But I think I'll give my writing a rest and let the song of the day send the message for me. The Song of The Day is Stereo Hearts by Gym Class Heroes, featuring Adam Levine (I have no idea who the fuck that guy is, but I assume he does the chorus.)
I don't know where else I was going with the Song of The Day today, so what's yours?
Music=Life
I don't know where else I was going with the Song of The Day today, so what's yours?
Music=Life
Sunday, March 4, 2012
Brain Stew
Had a discussion with my mother today, in which we decided that The Stepfather isn't simply stupid, he's just slow and doesn't give a shit about anything that doesn't interest or benefit him. He can fake care, but he's just going to bitch about it in the end and if he helps you once or does something for you, he's just going to hold that against you forever. But that's not what today's post is about, well, kinda.
If you can't tell by me typing this at 10 at night, I can't sleep. Mainly because I'm too bored, and just to spite the bitchiness that is the people I live with. We were cleaning the house this morning because Rocket was coming over later, and all you could hear was The Stepfather bitching about how dirty it is and blaming it all on us (being me and my sister Mix). Nevermind that the house is trashed with his and my mothers crap everywhere, and the living room floor is always covered with the baby's mess, nope. It's apparently all our fault that nothing is ever clean. Bitch please. My room is the cleanest in the house, know why? Because I clean up my room (Then he comes in and finds the one thing that's "out of place" and bitches about it for the next 12 hours.), know why I'm not responsible for anything that happens downstairs? Because I barely leave my room, and when I do it's certainly not to trash the already shitty looking house. When I do make a mess downstairs, I clean it up. I don't just pile everything on our entertainment center, or on the "Dining Room" table. All of this is just retarded, and it's killing my mind. The Song of The Day is Brain Stew by Green Day. I can't deal with these people for a whole year. I just need to be left in my room, I'll come down to do my chores, leave the house, and eat. But for the rest, I don't want any "family time" (as you would have to count me as part of this family first), I don't want any instruction as to what I'm doing wrong by doing exactly as I'm told, and I don't want to hear the bitching that comes from these peoples overused talking holes. Stop bitching about every little thing, and just generally shut the fuck up. Keep in mind that most of this is directed to one person in specific and not entirely everyone in my house. I despise the rest of you equally.
Now, what's your song of the day?
Music=Life
If you can't tell by me typing this at 10 at night, I can't sleep. Mainly because I'm too bored, and just to spite the bitchiness that is the people I live with. We were cleaning the house this morning because Rocket was coming over later, and all you could hear was The Stepfather bitching about how dirty it is and blaming it all on us (being me and my sister Mix). Nevermind that the house is trashed with his and my mothers crap everywhere, and the living room floor is always covered with the baby's mess, nope. It's apparently all our fault that nothing is ever clean. Bitch please. My room is the cleanest in the house, know why? Because I clean up my room (Then he comes in and finds the one thing that's "out of place" and bitches about it for the next 12 hours.), know why I'm not responsible for anything that happens downstairs? Because I barely leave my room, and when I do it's certainly not to trash the already shitty looking house. When I do make a mess downstairs, I clean it up. I don't just pile everything on our entertainment center, or on the "Dining Room" table. All of this is just retarded, and it's killing my mind. The Song of The Day is Brain Stew by Green Day. I can't deal with these people for a whole year. I just need to be left in my room, I'll come down to do my chores, leave the house, and eat. But for the rest, I don't want any "family time" (as you would have to count me as part of this family first), I don't want any instruction as to what I'm doing wrong by doing exactly as I'm told, and I don't want to hear the bitching that comes from these peoples overused talking holes. Stop bitching about every little thing, and just generally shut the fuck up. Keep in mind that most of this is directed to one person in specific and not entirely everyone in my house. I despise the rest of you equally.
Now, what's your song of the day?
Music=Life
Saturday, March 3, 2012
Last Train Home
I like helping people. I like having people listen to what I have to say, and having them know that my advice isn't all that bad. What I don't like, is helping people with relationship drama. So, I have decided to devise a playlist for all of you to listen to when your love life takes a shit on your regular life. It starts with my Song of The Day, Last Train Home by Lostprophets. Yes, I know I've used this one before. But that was a whole year ago. So Shut up.
1. Last Train Home by Lostprophets
2. Injection by Rise Against
3. Too Sick To Pray by A3
4. If You Can't Live Without Me, Why Aren't You Dead Yet? by Mayday Parade
I got bored before I could get a fifth song.
So what's your song of the day?
Music=Life
1. Last Train Home by Lostprophets
2. Injection by Rise Against
3. Too Sick To Pray by A3
4. If You Can't Live Without Me, Why Aren't You Dead Yet? by Mayday Parade
I got bored before I could get a fifth song.
So what's your song of the day?
Music=Life
Thursday, March 1, 2012
Shut-Up And Smile
I really don't want to quit the band. Mainly because I don't know how everything else could be impacted by me quitting. Not with the band, I'm ready to abandon them, I just don't know what Rocket will think. I mean, we met because I joined this band, so how would she feel about me quitting? If I stay I feel like I'm betraying one of my best friends because he was needlessly replaced, but I don't want to stay because (not only for the reason previously stated in this sentence) I can't do anything. They can all practice at school, which they have been (by they I mean Savvy, the new lead, and the new bass), and I just feel useless. No information has been relayed to me about new songs, or if we're doing any new covers. I feel useless. I'm an upfront guy, I tell people what I think, I just wish people would do the same for me. If you don't need me, tell me. Don't just keep me around because you feel bad. I don't know. I'll figure it out.
Onto the Song of The Day, which is Shut-Up and Smile by Bowling For Soup, because no matter how shitty things get, no matter how indecisive we may be, all we need is love, beer, metal, and holiday cheer. I don't have much more to say than that.
Readers, what's your song of the day?
Music=Life
Onto the Song of The Day, which is Shut-Up and Smile by Bowling For Soup, because no matter how shitty things get, no matter how indecisive we may be, all we need is love, beer, metal, and holiday cheer. I don't have much more to say than that.
Readers, what's your song of the day?
Music=Life
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