When I'm With You

The Song of The Day is When I'm With You by Faber Drive. I had some trouble deciding the song for today. But ultimately I went with another love song. Now as you know by now, Rocket and I don't have much time together. That's because our families seem to think that seeing eachother once a week is enough. Well, fuck them. Normally I wouldn't show such aggression towards somebody else's family, especially Rocket's family, I love her family. Except for her younger brother, he just creeps me out. Her older brother seems like a badass though. But I take issue with only seeing her once a week, especially now that I may have a means of increasing how much we see eachother. Anyway, I'm going to stay focused on attempting to achieve mutual happiness when I'm with her. Mutual as in for her and I, not for anybody else. But on the topic of the music, it's a really good song. I would also recommend, with this, Rooftops (A Liberation Broadcast) by Lostprophets, For The Win by We Are The In Crowd, and Tonight by FM Static.
So there it is for today Readers, now might I ask what your song of the day is? You know the drill by now. Song title and artist, an initial or something if you don't have an account. And just in case you don't know where to put it (that's what she said LOLZ), all of this should be typed into the comments section below this post. Or wherever it is for you. I don't know what your page looks like!

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Wouldn't It Be Nice

The Song of The Day is Wouldn't It Be Nice by The Beach Boys. Now I only know the first verse of the song, but I reckon that's all I need to know. Did I really just say that? Okay, so my computer is currently useless, so I downloaded the Blogger app so we can still have a way of communicating through music. So if this takes a while to post... well then fuck it.

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Inside Out

I couldn't think of a song for today. So go listen to Inside Out by Eve 6. I am declaring that the song of the day.

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Behind Blue Eyes

The Song of The Day is Behind Blue Eyes by Limp Bizkit. Yes, it's a cover, but a damn good one. Now those that know me well, mainly my face, know that I don't have blue eyes. But that's not the point, and I didn't choose this song because I'm sad or depressed or anything like that. I chose this song because the lyrics hold truth in them. Nobody knows what it's like for the other person. You don't know their story, you don't know their past, and it's not for you to speculate about. You don't know what thoughts or memories lay behind those eyes of theirs. Whether or not they're holding back some secret anger. Whether or not they're on a quest for vengeance or safety. If they're sad, feeling down or hated, or how they really feel at that moment. And when you do find their past, don't hold it against them. I know I used to point this out frequently, but our generation has drifted too far from the old ways. The world has become rotten and evil to the point where most people will use whatever information they have to ruin anyone they can, just to make themselves feel better, and that's not right Readers. Just because somebody has had a rough past, whether it was their fault or whether somebody else caused it, doesn't mean that they aren't a good person. Who they were may have made them who they are today, but that shouldn't change what you think of them. And if it does, if when you find out that bit of their backstory that's hidden from the world you completely change how you think of them, shame on you. You are one of the types of people that makes me wish I had access to a nuclear power and the satellites to direct it. 

The song was originally by The Who.

Readers, what's your song of the day?

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Nine In The Afternoon

Today was pretty awesome. We left early in the morning, not as early as I would've hoped, to go pick up Rocket so we could go to the Russian Food Festival out in Boise. I have a newfound respect for Russian culture. So much so that I want to go there just to eat their food. Forever. Just live in Russia for the food. Although considering the exchange rate from American dollars to Russian Rubles, I should really make my fortune here with music and then go to Russia and have a mansion built. Y'know, the one that I mentioned before, built into the side of a mountain and all that. I don't really care which mountain, so long as it happens. Then we came back to base and went swimming. SO MUCH CHLORINE IN MY EYES IT STILL FUCKING BURNS LIKE YOU HAVE NO IDEA. IT HURTS. I think that's enough caps-lock for this post. But besides the chlorine poisoning my eyes, I had fun. Rocket was there (looking amazing in her swim-suit), and apparently Dmitri was there waiting for us. Oh and my sister Mix was there too. But she's actually the reason we had to leave so early, because she had a birthday party to go to. So we left, dropped Rocket off with her grandmother at the grocery store, then went boating. Now I don't know how many of you know this, but I detest fishing. I used to love it when I was littler. Y'know, like 11, but now it just bores the hell out of me. Literally puts me right the fuck to sleep, no joke. I fell asleep on the boat for a couple minutes. I should probably check a mirror or something to make sure they didn't draw on my face or something. Whatever I'll do that later. So we spent nearly 3 hours on the damn boat, I enjoyed half of it (the half where the boat was actually moving), we caught 4 fish, 3 of which we took home. Apparently you can't eat sucker-fish. Well, you can it's just that they're dirt fish. The scum of the fish world (actually they're the ones that eat the scum of the fish world. Because they eat scum. Off the bottom of the body of water. You get it.). But the point is I had a badass day. I'm in love, I've got family that at least cares about me a little bit (did I tell you? Mum is gonna try to get Rocket and I more than just one day a week.), and I can't stop singing. I'm happy, and that brings to mind a song about being happy. The Song of The Day is Nine In The Afternoon by Panic! At The Disco.
Readers, what's your song of the day? Feel free to share in the comments, I generally look up whatever people post (not that I get a lot of replies), and I'm always looking for more music.

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Play That Funky Music

So I had another one of my genius ideas, not one of those "It sounded like a good idea at the time" ideas, but a really good idea. Me, Dmitri, and whoever the hell else we can get to form up a band, are going to do a Cover CD. But not some normal cover cd where they don't even change the genre or time period. And not a "Glee" Cover CD where they get some prissy looking high school choir to sing all the songs with high energy and absurd amounts of rainbow flavored cocaine. No, this'll be different in that we're going to take funky, righteous, hellacious 70's disco-esque music and do all punk rock covers of them. So the Song of The Day, in honor of the 70's, is Play That Funky Music by Wild Cherry, a band you've probably never heard of because they're really only known for this song. And even then they aren't really known so much as listened to. I never even knew who the fuck they were until about 15 minutes ago, but I knew the song. Not much else to report here, I got a hair-cut yesterday, really short. That's about it.

Readers, what's your song of the day?

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Forget It

Another song chosen just for it's name. The Song of The Day is Forget It by Breaking Benjamin. The name says it all, literally. I've been fighting myself a lot lately, arguing with the thoughts, suspicious vile thoughts, and I realize that whatever my other self says is all lies. Just dirty lies that I don't need to listen to. So I'm just going to drop it, no matter how much I had myself believing they were true, I'm just going to forget it. Because some problems just aren't worth the risk, and this one had a huge risk either way. If I'm wrong, I'm screwed, if I'm right, I'm screwed.
Readers, what's your song of the day?

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Kickapoo

The Song of The Day is Kickapoo by Tenacious D. I'm not really into explaining right now. Just listen to the song.

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If I Leave

I'm going to be completely honest, I don't know the lyrics to this song and I only chose it for the name. I know I like the song, and I've listened to it several times, I just don't have the lyrics memorized and don't feel like looking them up right now for fear that they might twist my message in this post into something that it's not meant to be. So for the integrity of this post, don't think of the lyrics. The Song of The Day is If I Leave by A Day To Remember.
They're sending me away. For whatever reason they have in their heads, because I know that the reason they told me isn't the real one. I also know that Mother knows me. She knows that anytime I get on a plane alone, it's a one way ticket, and I'm not ready to leave like that. I'm not ready to go home. I've got promises to keep, I've got a real love that I want to keep with me. I also know that if I leave, Rocket will think that I've abandoned her, because I won't be able to come back. That's part of their plan though, because my grandmother told me she'd pay for a one way ticket for me and to ship my stuff up there, so it won't just be for the summer. Not that I can talk to anybody in my family about this, none of them would listen. None of them care what I want or what's really best for me. On top of that I'd be returning home as a failure. I can't do that, I won't survive it. Old friends will ask what happened to me, wondering why I've changed from the innocent dreamer that I once was, into some delusional delinquent. Then there's my other self, the bastard doubts everything everyone says. Distorting words and phrases to sinister meanings and contexts, reminding me just how weak I am. If I can't control my own mind how can I control the situation? How can I fix a problem on the outside if I'm fighting a war with myself on the inside? Everything is just fucked right now, and things are only going to get worse from here. I know it, I can feel the energies shifting around me and in this house. Something is about to break, and it's not just my mind. I can't leave yet, I'm not ready to go home, I've still got things to take care of here, I've still got Rocket and I'm not about to leave her just to escape some legal issues. We were together when all of this started, and the only way we're going to get through this is together.
I can't go home yet..

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Little Boxes

It seems that no matter how different we try to be, we always end up the same. We always end up fitting into some little sub-group or clique. That doesn't seem right to me. All these supposed role-models tell us to go out and be our own person and be unique and all that, but we all have to go up to the universities, then we come out all the same. So the Song of The Day is Little Boxes by this amazing band called Walk Off The Earth. Seriously, go to youtube right now and look up their cover of Somebody That I Used To Know (I have no clue who the original artist is, but the cover is better anyway.), it's awesome. I won't ruin it for you by telling you why it's awesome, but I think they could've used a couple more guitars. Y'know what guys, I'm just going through a whole mental deconstruction thing right now and I can't do this tonight. I'm just really messed up right now.

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The Sound of Silence

Guess how much of today made sense! Nothing. I got lost in the dream world last night and I'm not sure if I'm even awake right now. It's a real inception moment, only instead of being Cobb, I'm more like Molley. Which is kind of sad. Don't worry, I'm not going to go off and kill myself because I'm confused, I'm just saying that I don't know what went on today. Literally, I know that I had toast for breakfast, pancakes for lunch, and spaghetti for dinner. Anything in between that really wasn't important I guess. So that's why the Song of The Day is The Sound of Silence by Simon & Garfunkel, because I don't understand what the song is about. Not much to report on today, I guess I'm a mean person. I never felt that I was excessively mean, but I can start paying more attention to what I say and do now.
Maybe the song of the day should've been Pain by Three Days Grace

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Just Checking In

So, I was going through some old posts in the archives, and I'm astounded at how far I've come. I started this in 2010 with a small song library, now it's 2012 and I've learned of more music than I had thought there was back then. I mean, I knew of the bands and their music, but now I've got this entire computer filled with over a month of music, and that's not counting what's just on my Droid. This was one of those days that just didn't amount to anything. So fuck it.
Readers, do any of you have a song of the day?

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Bleed It Out/Waiting For The End

There are those times when it seems like nobody around you knows what the fuck is really going on. This past month has been one of those times for me. The Songs of The Day are Bleed It Out and Waiting For The End, both by Linkin Park. Yes it's a song about suicide, but I'm far from that. Suicide is for the weak, and I'm not as weak as my other self seems to think. No, this is the song of the day because sometimes you have to do something drastic to make people realize what the real problem is. Now it seems like everybody in my family that is involved or has taken interest in this situation is just blaming my actions on my friends and Rocket, and that's not right. My father says that I was "just chasing some girl" (to put it nicely, I'd not repeat what he called her.), which sucks because she was looking forward to possibly meeting him this week, but after all that was said today I'm not sure that I want him here. He doesn't understand that all of this has nothing to do with the bitter feud that he and my mother have. He doesn't get that this isn't just because I live with somebody other than him. I don't live with him because I know that I'll never live up to his expectations, but it seems that even here I can't escape being a huge fucking disappointment to the bastard. So I don't know what to do to make him understand that I don't need somebody else flipping shit on me when I've pretty much kicked the crap out of myself every day since I failed my friends. He doesn't have that guilt, he's never let anybody down the way I have.
Then there's my Grandmother, one of the only 3 people that doesn't make me feel fucking useless because of this. No, she just makes me feel more guilty. There are only three things that really hurt me about all this. They are, in this order, letting down my grandparents, not being able to see Rocket as much, and knowing that my feeling of overall failure is justified. My Grandma and Grandpa (on my fathers side) are the people that are my inspiration to succeed. Even before I met Rocket, or my brothers in Florida, I knew I had to be famous to pay them back. They are first on my list of people to help when I make it. Of course my grandmother always wanted me to be a doctor, lawyer, or scientist, so a profession in the arts was out of the question to her, so I changed my plan a bit to where I could still be happy without being a disappointment. I know it sounds petty, but they are some of the most important people in my life, and I can't let them down. I'm seriously afraid that they might die if I go to juvie. I'm not fucking kidding.
In other news I "finished" my new mask. It's kind of a demonic skull looking face. It was originally orange, so I repainted it all white, and I wear it with a kind of ninja hood behind it so that the black and white contrast. I'm going to splatter it with red paint to look like blood splatter. It's gonna be sick.
Readers, what's your song of the day?


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I'm Just A Kid

I'm done with hope, because hoping for things only leads to disappointment and the realization of how impossible your objective was in the first place, which then leads to sadness. So hope=sadness. In what could be my last Song of The Day for a while, I plan to say a lot. I won't, but I plan to.
The Song of The Day is I'm Just A Kid by Simple Plan, that's what I am, just a kid. In the eyes of my parents, in the eyes of the world, in the eyes of everyone I'm just a stupid kid. That's not going to be how they see me tomorrow though, tomorrow they'll just see a person who committed a crime or two. They won't see a kid, which isn't fair. A lot of it isn't fair or doesn't make sense though. You all tell us that as teenagers we need to start acting like adults, but refuse to stop treating us as children. Then when we start acting responsible and trying to be more adult you tell us that we have to appreciate the time we have because once we turn 18 nothing is fun anymore. Nothing is fun right now. I literally have one fun day a week if I'm lucky, and the only reason that it's fun is because I get to spend time with Rocket. Which doesn't happen very often anymore because I got expelled and my stepfather doesn't like her for absolutely no reason what-so-fucking-ever. He's trying to be nicer though, I know he is. He just really sucks at it, really. The point is that no matter what happens tomorrow, it won't feel right. Rocket, Dmitri, and I could get away with no punishment whatsoever, and I'd only feel more guilty. Or I get sent to juvie and lose my mind. Or get put on probation, which means that they'd try to stop Rocket and I from seeing eachother. I don't care though, even if they are reading this right now, I'd break whatever rules were put in front of me just to see her. I'd break out of wherever they throw me if it meant I could spend time with her more than just once a week. But it wouldn't be a discrete "dig under the ground with a spoon" breakout, I'd start a riot, then all of us would get out. Well, those of us that aren't getting the shit beat out of us or fighting with the officers.
Dmitri says that we probably won't get juvie though. How would he know? It's not like he's been picked up for shit like this before, plus they might be getting me with some federal charges or some bullshit like that, we don't know what they're charging me with because the genius in charge of serving me my summons LOST MY FUCKING PAPERS. Really? Your sole job is delivering some papers to a minor awaiting his court date, and you lose the papers? What kind of a dipshit do you have to be? And this isn't just a day before thing, they told us the papers were missing 3 days ago. So now I'm going in with no fucking clue as what to expect, or how to prepare myself. So I've got to wing it and do whatever the fuck I can to get the least possible punishment for myself, and if possible Rocket. Notice I'm not going to fight for Dmitri. Nope, not after finding out just why the cops stopped to talk to us in the first place. I told him we didn't need to steal anything, but nobody fucking listens to me. If people just listened to me, and had we stuck to my plan, this wouldn't be happening right now. So fuck him, because that's the mood I'm in right now.
Readers, what's your song of the day?

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Take Over The World

"Gee Brain, what are we going to do tonight?"

Know the answer? If not, get out of my web address. The Song of The Day is Take Over The World by Your Favorite Martian. Y'know what, I don't have time for this. I'm about to watch Insidious. Hoping it's as scary as they all say it is. It's been a while since a movie has scared me.

Readers, what's your song of the day?

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Let Go

I tried to narrow what happened yesterday down to one song, and I couldn't do it. Too many thoughts, too many feelings, not enough words. So I made a playlist today while I was lying in bed all day. It is as follows;

Sing For The Moment by Eminem
Somewhere I Belong by Linkin Park
I'm Just A Kid by Simple Plan
I Just Wanna Run by The Downtown Fiction
Lights Out by Mindless Self Indulgence

That's about it. I don't know what today's song of the day will be, but that covers yesterday.

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Till I Collapse

A lot of you keep telling me to just give up. That I've got no reason to keep fighting. Hell, I was telling myself that for a couple weeks, but that's not who I am anymore. I'm a lyricist, a weaver of webs with words and music. If only I could put more out than just the words though. That doesn't matter, what matters is that this is what I do, I write, and I'm going to keep writing until my legs fall out from underneath me. Or the ground that I stand on, whichever comes first. Family was against my pursuit in the arts until recently, now that I may not have a lot of time left to pursue my dream of owning a guitar shop and writing for a famous band. Even if all of us know that this isn't the end of the world, we all know how I take things. I'll either leave the house every day for hours on end to gods-know-where, or I'll give up on everything and never leave my room and probably try to kill myself a couple times (third time's the charm right? not funny....).
The Song of The Day is Till I Collapse by Eminem, because I'm gonna keep at this songwriting thing until I die, not that I intend to die, I'm going to live forever as a god of music. Whether it's from my personal voice, or just the words from my pen, somebody that I don't know is going to remember me. You will remember me.
Readers, what's your song of the day?

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