My Darkest Hour

Lately I've been doubting everything. And everyone. Mainly myself, which is why I've started my whole reconstruction thing y'know. After high school I'm supposed to go down to New Mexico (I completely forgot why we chose New Mexico or how that was decided.) to meet up with The Girl. But what if I get there, and we meet again, and I'm just some huge disappointment? What if she sees pictures of me or something before then and decides not to go? My Darkest Hour? Getting there and being right about everything again. Song of The Day is My Darkest Hour by Scary Kids Scaring Kids. I don't want the years to go by and for me to be the same disappointment that I am now or was a year ago. I want to be different. To be like my friend Victor. Almost every girl I thought (or was told) I had a chance with wanted to go out with him (the exact numbers being 3 out of 4. All this was of course after the thing with The Girl and one of my best friends. Starting to think I surround myself with the wrong people if every girl I feel remotely attracted to in any way goes after one of my friends. Now that I think of it, there was one girl who ended up with my friend Taylor. What the fuck.) I want to be the guy that can steal the heart of any girl, but doesn't. Like the people in those retarded chick-flicks my mom and sister are always watching. All of this is of course unrealistic as I am doomed to spend my days in an unchangeable recurring situation. I'm a stepping stone. If that's the right phrase. Anyway, I'm not even supposed to be awake right now, time to go off on some sleeping pills. Chances of accidental OD because the bottle doesn't give dosage amounts? Moderately high. But I'm not dead yet so fuck off world.

Readers, do I even need to ask what your song of the day is?

Music=Life

Dignity

Apparently I've never posted a Bullet song on here before. Song of the week is Dignity by Bullet For My Valentine. Say what you will about the band, I don't give a fuck, I like the songs. Unless your answering the usual question or you have something important to say, piss off. I'm kidding, I don't really care who reads this (unless your my grandparents, then I'm sorry and I encourage you to vacate the page immediately) But anyway, look up the song, it's really good, and I still haven't figured out why my mind says this is the Song of The Week.

Readers, what's your song of the Week? And for the missing question from my last post, what's your song of the day?

Music=Life

Bring The Pain

Why can't I be the badass? Aside from the obvious I mean (being a skinny, pale, white boy). I'm fast. I'm witty. I just don't have the skill. So for the last few days (starting yesterday) I have been re-inventing myself. Rebuilding. So, I acted towards my mind as a mechanic would with a machine. Tore apart my mental, my psyche, my personality. And now, we rebuild. Starting with the mind. I am indestructible, as long as I believe that I shall have no fear of death (only pain). I rode my bike off the roof today (don't tell my parents, or The Girl). It fucking hurt. But nothing was broken, I walked inside with only a bloody nose and some minor nausea. Then as I passed the bathroom I threw up in the toilet. But that doesn't matter. So how the fuck am I? Well, I got my plan, I wouldn't say I'm "swayze" cuz I don't know what that means, but if it's good, then yes. I am swayze. The song of The Day is Bring The Pain by Mindless Self Indulgence. It's actually a cover of an old rap song by Method Man, but the original FUCKING SUCKS. That's why the MSI version is here instead. :) So I'm gonna let myself know it's real, the pain that is. I'm gonna pick up parkour again. Learning Kendo from this new kid that moved in on base. It's some old-ass Japanese swordfighting thing. But whatever. I'm gonna be the guy others wish they could be. Rather than watching all these movies and wishing I could do what they do, I'm gonna learn to do it. My stepdad is teaching me to be a better shot with his M1911 .45 caliber handgun and his old .22 rifle. (maybe the bastard isn't totally useless afterall) "I came to bring the pain" the very first line from the song, that'll be me. Wish me luck! Song of the week to come soon.

Music=Life

Friends 'O Mine

Well, another friend moved today. He's heading out to some military base in England. Oh well. You ever think about all the people you've met? All the friends you've made, all the lives you have potentially impacted? What do you come up with? This one is for anybody I've ever been friends with, from Alaska to Pennsylvania to Florida. And Readers, maybe it's time to try and reconnect with old friends. I recently found my old friends from gradeschool on Facebook. We still don't talk a lot, but I call sometimes to see how everything is going up in Alaska. Actually, L moved to Vermont and I haven't talked to her since. And now that I'm going through my friends on Facebook to see if they're online I see that neither of them are on my friends list anymore. Sad face. Oh well. Anyway, if there was anybody that you were ever really tight with, close like family from different parents, you should find 'em. Remember one thing though, losing friends sucks, but ALMOST everyone is replaceable (I don't think that's spelled right but spell-check recognizes it...). For those that aren't replaceable, hold on as long as you can, cuz that's one wound impossible to patch.

Readers, what's your song of the day?

Music=Life

From Heads Unworthy

"This is me taking control" A line from Wesley in Wanted. This is me, not taking control. This is me suggesting that we, as the masses take control. Not in a violent way, and I'm not really suggesting that we take control. I'm suggesting we all move to a pseudo-Amish colony. Keep technology, scrap the internet. Isolate all connection with the outside world. Abandon money. Get rid of anything in modern society that inspires prejudice and hatred. I want to create a community of acceptance. A peoples who have no reason to hate unless angered. I understand that in order to accomplish this we would have to abandon most religion. Let them believe in a God, but not his rules or disciplines. Keep few of the 10 commandments, but don't enforce them with the threat of eternal damnation. Everything will be decided as a community rather than by an all powerful government. Our president is one of the most powerful men in the world. I don't want a community ruled by one person. Everyone should be totally equal, no money means no upper class or lower class. This isn't Communism. This is Equality. or maybe I'm just going insane and dreaming for the impossible. Song of the Day is From Heads Unworthy by Rise Against.

Readers, what's your song of the day?

Music=Life

Skyway Avenue

A friend of mine showed me this song, told me the video describes his relationship with his girlfriend. lolz. You should go watch the video, Skyway Avenue by We The Kings. This isn't the song of the day. This is the Song Of the Day So Far, mainly because I wanted to share a good song. In other news I applied to gain from my page-views through Swagbucks.com. It's a search engine that rewards you for searching. So far I've got some music and a signed Hinder poster from one of their 2008 shows. But yes, in 4-8 weeks I shall be using you for my personal gain. FEEL USED MWAHAHAHAHAHAAH. Anyway, it's a good song. Well this is a new lyrics site for me. Lyricsmode.com, has the usual retarded advertising all over, never been there before today. I've been using a lot of lyrics sites lately, I just don't feel like listening to the song constantly unless I want to learn to sing it. And I don't really want to learn this song entirely, it's not really a song for me to learn as it is for my friend to learn. Anyway, looking at the lyrics I guess this is a song about love and Suicide, cuz that's not an overused theme in music lately. Another good We The Kings song is Check Yes Juliet. I like the speed and beat, just the overall feel of the song for me inspires some feeling. Not even paying attention to the words of the song. Anyway, the alarm on the oven is going off and my mom is making bread so yeah.

I'll end this with a different question since this isn't the song of the day.

Readers, what song has the beat that just puts you in a good mood no matter what?

Music=Life

How Far We've Come

Hello, Hello, Hello. How many of you believe in "The Rapture"? May 21, 2011. The day "Jesus" returns to Earth and divides us all to either Heaven or Hell. The Ten Commandments were a set of rules for us to live our lives by. These were of course impossible to follow, so each and every one of us will go to hell (if it's real). They are as follows.

1. Worship no other than God, Jesus, and/or The Holy Spirit

2. Don't make carved images of anything holy that resides or relates to Heaven.

3. Don't use God's name in vain

4. Remember Sunday is a day of rest.

5. Honor your Father and Mother

6. Don't fucking kill anyone

7. Don't CHEAT on your relationship

8. Don't steal

9.Don't lie

10. Don't be jealous about anything EVER

Obviously I reworded them so you all would understand. Let's go over why all of us have broken AT LEAST one of these.

1. Anything but Christianity

2. Anyone who has a picture of Jesus, angels, or a statue of Jesus on the cross

3. Oh my god, is there anyone who hasn't done this?

4. People work, play, and exercise on Sunday. What is a day of rest nowadays?

5. C'mon, let's be honest, we all hate our parents at some point. I flat out wanna kill my Stepfather.

6. Kinda hard to break, but what about the military? our "heroes". They're all going to hell.

7. Whoever does this does deserve to go to Hell. At least there's one rule that makes sense. Anyway, people are cheated on every minute of every day.

8. We've all taken something as children.

9. Witness Protection Program. All those otherwise innocent people condemned by one rule.

10. We've all been Jealous at some point.

So, how far have we come from our base instincts? We're all going to "Hell" at the end of the world, if Christianity is right. Song of the Day is How Far We've Come by Matchbox Twenty. A good song about the end of the world, while still in a bright tone. Would the end of the world really be different from any other day? We wake up, we sin, we breathe, we die. Tell me the difference from any other day? So why should it matter? "It's the end of everything! Of our lives!" And what about the people meeting their end EVERY DAY?! Is it really any different from being murdered? What's the difference between life spontaneously ending, and a bullet to the brain; Nothing. An end is an end. Take solace in the fact that science gives us new lives. When one world ends, thanks to the flow of time another is created. By every second of our lives a choice is made. For every choice is an action, for every action a reaction. What we do here, doesn't matter because somewhere else we've already done it. When we die, we are born again. Completely different, completely the same. We have accomplished nothing in our lives. So suicide, murder, natural death. It doesn't matter how you die, the point is you die. Wow, that had no connection in the slightest did it? Anyway, there's the song, Rapture is tomorrow, and I'm sick on the first day of summer. In other news, I didn't break my hand, and I'm already almost completely able to move all my fingers again. Told you I'm indestructible.

Readers, what's your last song?

Music=Life therefore, We are immortal.

School's Out/ Another Playlist

Last Day Of School motherfuckers!!! Forgive me for any grammar or spelling errors as I've injured my right hand and can barely move it. So I'm typing one handed with the left. Song of The Day is obviously School's Out by Alice Cooper. But I also have a playlist to describe the school year. And when I started thinking of all the songs that could describe the school year I got sad, then pissed, and now my hand is bleeding and potentially BROKEN. But I don't give a fuck because I'm indestructible. But for future reference for all others; Bone fist v.s. Rough Concrete wall= Awesome pain and cracking sound along with a bit of blood, if you do it hard enough the first time you won't have to try again. Anyway, Here's the Playlists.

During School:

Remember The Name by Fort Minor

Handlebars by Flobots

Friends 'O Mine by Bowling For Soup

Never Wanted To Dance by Mindless Self Indulgence

Bring The Pain by Mindless Self Indulgence

Situations by Escape The Fate

No.5 by Hollywood Undead

High School Never Ends by Bowling For Soup

Given Up by Linkin Park

Afterschool:

Last To Know by Three Days Grace

Better Than Me by Hinder

Last Train Home by Lostprophets

La La Lie by Jack's Mannequin

Heartless by Fake Problems

Young By Hollywood Undead

Don't Trust Me by 3OH!3

Saviour by Rise Against

The Approaching Curve by Rise Against

Bleed It Out by Linkin Park

Believe by Skillet

And I couldn't remember everything else, I had it written down but I couldn't remember where I put the lists. There was like 120 songs overall. So this should be good.

So readers, what's your song of the day? And if ur in school, a song or playlist to describe your year. Have fun, I'm gonna go change the bandages because I'm getting blood on the keyboard. Hands don't usually bleed this much do they? Whatever, I lost feeling 20 minutes ago.

Damn these people!

Music=Life, Blood=Hard to get out of white clothes.

Lose Yourself

So I uh, just checked my stats for this month so far. Thank all of you for those 61 page views, was a great reprieve from my usual feelings of self hatred and drowning. But now back to business. And speaking of business, that's another great song by Eminem, the artist of todays Song Of The Day, Lose Yourself by Eminem, a song made for his movie 8Mile. The movie is supposed to tell us how he got started, Eminem of course plays himself (haha, plays himself. That would be pervertedly funny if it was a bit closer, sorry, back to the main point). It's about letting music take control of you, this can be good or bad depending on the situation. But it's also a story, listen to the words, don't just hum along with them. It's his story. What made him go from Marshal Mathers, to Eminem. It's basically a two hour movie in a 5 minute 31 second song. But with the movie you get the satisfaction of watching Eminem beat the shit out of some guy that's banging his mom XD The song is almost sad if you place an emotional connection on some of the lines. Anyway, my mom is bitching at me to go do some online schooling. I seem to have a knack for pissing of women. lolz.

So readers, what's your song of the day?

Music=Life

Just checking In... No song right now.

Before we start, who can guess what tomorrows song of the day will be? It's the last day of school tomorrow, and Mr.Cooper will be making his debut on my page. But today I found it hard to pick a song. Nothing really defining happened today. Well, there's still some time left in the day. Watching The Chronicles of Riddick right now. But we'll see what I'm doing when I actually finish typing this. So far nothings been going on. Can't talk to The Girl (I think using that name to refer to her as might be moderately offensive. She's not just some girl really) for a while. Well, we never really talk anyway, mainly just text. So instead of risking embarrassing her by calling, I'll just do what she said and message her on facebook. Whoa, that's a fucked up commercial. Just watched a chick turn into a living body of water from drinking Lipton iced tea.... I'm done drinking that shit, what idiot in marketing said that was a good idea for a commercial???

The Final Countdown

"We're leaving together, but still it's farewell" Those lines represent what this week is all about. This is the last time I'm going to see most of my friends from this school, I'm supposed to be moving over the summer, and these are the last four days of school. It's literally the Final Countdown. I hate to end a year like this, I've reached the point where I can safely adopt a "devil may care" attitude during school towards my "friends", and have ended up being left out of most conversations and otherwise totally ditched. But fuck 'em all. My real friends are all north of here. Spread out through the lower 48's and up to Alaska. I'm supposed to be leaving for Alaska a week after school gets out, but now I'm not sure I want to go. It was originally just supposed to be me at my Grandparents house, but now my mom and sister are coming too. So I'm probably just gonna chill down here and record some shit with my band. Tried recording a vocal cover of Everywhere I Go by Hollywood Undead today, it was going great towards the end. After he left, I checked the box for a playback, it only recorded the first 34 seconds. Which consisted of the guitar intro and vocal intro.. EPIC FAIL. Song of The Day is The Final Countdown by Europe, and if you listen to the lyrics, it's about space travel.... Surprised?

Readers, what's your song of the day? And if you are in school, what are your feelings about the end of the school year?

Music=Life

Last To Know

Have you ever had to tell one of your friends that their girlfriend/boyfriend is cheating on them? Have you ever felt that pain, felt responsible for something you had nothing to do with? It sucks. Especially when they're the last to know. Song of the Day is Last To Know by Three Days Grace. How do you tell them and expect your friendship to survive, how do you expect them to survive? He hates his life, and never had much to talk about, until he met her. I'm worried for my friend, but I hate the girl. I have the thought that nobody should be able to get away with hurting my friends, but bound by my family's rules I can't attack a girl. So how do I get her back? How do I "avenge" my friend? Rumors are for the weak with little imagination, all her friends knew she was cheating on him and never said anything, so there's nothing I can do involving them.... Attack the one she was cheating with? Not a good idea, football players tend to hit really hard. I guess there's not much to do but hope he gets over it and realizes she's just another preppy bitch and easily forgotten. I hate high school, it causes this. All the overachievers and jocks find whatever small difference there is in anyone and exploit it, making them seem weirder and weirder to the other students. Eventually those that are thought to be "weird" or different in any way are totally isolated. Psychology and media tells us that they do it just to make themselves feel better, to compensate for what makes them different, but I see no difference in any of them. Perhaps a line from the song From Heads Unworthy by Rise Against fits this a bit better, "except for you and me love, everyones the same". I think that these kids do all this just to be mean. No reason other than that. They aren't compensating for a difference. Do the mentally challenged make fun of us because we're different and they feel the need to compensate for their disability? (I fucking dare you to point out what's wrong with that comparison, I will find you, and destroy you) No they don't. Fuck this, nothing is real, the government did it, aliens, bigfoot. I don't feel like thinking.

Readers, what's your song of the day?

Music=Life, Cheaters=Pathetic, Society=Wrong

Sell Your Soul

Song of the Week is Sell Your Soul by Hollywood Undead, from their Swan Songs album. I like this song. I think it's about how religion controls most peoples lives. The beginning of each verse is done by Duece, the rest of the 1st verse is done by Charlie Scene, the second verse is done by J-Dog, or maybe it's J, then Charlie? All I know is my favorite part, the part that J3T does (Google chrome's dictionary recognizes J3T as a word???). The final verse. It goes like this;

My Heart beat stumbles and my back-bone crumbles

I feel is it real as the lynch mob doubles

They want blood and they'll kill for it

Drain me and they'll kneel for it

Burn me at the stake, met the devil, made the deal for it

Guillotine dreams, now their guillotine gleams

With the blood of their enemies

Watch you while they sentence me

Sentencing ceased, sentence deceased

And watch them bask in the glory of their holy disease

That's the best part of the song (in my opinion). This is my song of the week because I had a lot of religious conversations this week. Explaining how the bible is wrong to superchristians and almost being stabbed by this chick Summer (she has major issues, nobody cares how long you went through anger management, I've done it, it's not that hard.) for explaining how (Historically) the Catholic religion has had more people killed "In The Name Of God" (not Ala, not talking about Muslims here, just christians. I have yet to meet a super-religious muslim. And I can guarantee you that when I do, I'll piss them off too.) than any other branch of Christianity. C'mon people, the Crusades ring any bells?! Then I went of on this kid on my bus Fred, tells me every day how I'm going to hell because I haven't found jesus. I found "Jesus", he lives in one of the most popular, and most boring, pieces of fiction of all time. Maybe you've heard of it, The Bible? Then the Mormons were next. Did you know that in the Mormon religion there is no such thing as hell? Supposedly none of them ever go to hell. Who knows how the mormon religion got started? A man had some "gold tablets" that only he was allowed to see, and he had to look through a special round rock to translate them. So the scribe that he's had writing all his translations takes the pieces home to his wife, his wife then hides them and says that if the dude is a real prophet that he can rewrite everything exactly how it was the first time. So the prophet goes back and tells John whatshisname that he lost the pages. He gets all pissy and says "I must pray over this" comes back and tells the dude something along the lines of "god is very mad at you, and has told me that we must write it again. But this time it will be worded differently." So after a day of writing all his bullshit down the scribe takes the pages back, and guess what happens next. The old and the new don't match up. Y'know what the best part is? All of this is set in America in the 1800's! PEOPLE ACTUALLY BELIEVE IN THIS BULLSHIT. How sad is that? I've been going through religion for a year now, and I've found only two that don't have one isolated god. I can't remember exactly, but it's either Pagan or Wiccan that worship the land and elements of Earth. But hey, if I'm wrong and all that Christianity shit is real, I'll laugh all the way to the ninth floor of hell. For traitors and those who have committed the highest sins against "God".

Until next week readers, what's your song of the Week?

Music=Life

Remember The Name

Another one I might have done before, if I didn't I probably meant to. Song of The Day is Remember The Name by Fort Minor (w/Mike Shinoda). Now idk if Mike was always with Fort Minor, but if he left them for Linkin Park, he's stupid. He's a good rapper, and idk if Fort Minor is even still around, anyway let's get back to the song shall we? I got a new mic and cord today. And a Mr.Hanky the Christmas Poo guitar strap for my electric, to go with my other South Park strap on my acoustic.

Here's why you'll remember the name of my band (when we get a name), we're doing a rock cover of Past The Point of No Return from The Phantom Of The Opera. Before you go reminding me of all the fails on youtube, beat it. Aleecia, Camron, and I are gonna pull it off. Camron's gonna rap a piece, Aleecia is gonna do her parts, and I'm gonna do mine. We're transcribing from other instruments and speeding it up a bit. It's also the only song that will get Tyler and Aleecia to work together. So, You ready? Let's Go!

Readers, what's Your song of the day?

Music=10% Luck, 20% Skill, 15% concentrated power of will, 5% Pleasure, and 50% Pain, but 100% Reason to Remember the Name

My Band

So, have I mentioned I started a new band? No? Well, I left Broken Sanity and started a band with my friend Camron, he raps, I sing and play rhythm guitar. Now, I just chose this song cuz I'm the lead singer of my band. XD I'm not like Eminem in the song, not that vain. The main thing here is choosing who we want in, we actually have people asking to be in our band! LOLZ. Camron wants to go with a dude named Tyler, but our pianist/singer HATES him! She has a friend that's been playing for years, as opposed to this Tyler kid whose only been playing for a year. But I was thinking I bring in my friend Victor, he's the one that started Broken Sanity, he played lead guitar, and he's been playing since he was like 10. So, we're doing rap/alternative/pop-rock type thing. Song of the day is My Band by D12, Eminem was in the band D12 at one point. Anybody else think that Eminem kinda sucks since rehab? He's just not shady anymore.

Readers, what's your song of the day?

Music=Life

100 Years

So, I'm still thinking about my future, and this song was on my playlist this morning so I'm just like "YESSSSSSSSSS!!!!!". Literally, ask the kids on my bus. This song is about what you do with your life. Let's all be honest here, we've all listened to a Five For Fighting song and couldn't help but sing or hum along, it's okay, this is a safe place (actually, it's not, everything you say here is being monitored by the Government and being ran through several filters to try and figure out if what your saying is some sort of cypher that your using through the internet to communicate with your terrorist buddies in the taliban. I'm sorry but no terrorists on my page.). It represents all the worries and dreams and thoughts of aging. I remember when they used to play this song on the radio, and everyone in the car would sing along.... Good times. But now I'm heading into the past when I'm supposed to be writing about the future. I'm figuring out where I'm supposed to be, as you should be readers. I'm supposed to be successful. Bringing pride to my family name, to my hometown of North Pole, Alaska, and to all of my dead family members whose deaths shaped me into the asshole I am today. It's getting from here to there that is the challenge for all of us. Getting from where we are now, wherever you are now, to wherever you want to be, or supposed to be. Believe in free will if you want, but there is something that is guiding us through our lives, and I'm not sure where I'm going with this so I'll just end this now before I go even farther into something or other. The song of the day is 100 Years by Five For Fighting.

So readers, what's your song of the day?

Music=Life

You're Gonna Go Far Kid

What do you picture yourself doing in the future? I'm nearing the end of my second year in high school, saw something about a graduation on tv today, and realized I might not go to college. This got me thinking, maybe I could fake my way through life. People get paid to lie all the time. Witnesses, lawyers, juries, and dirty cops. But I'm not a very good liar, then the lines popped into my head; "Show me how to lie, you're getting better all the time and turning all against one is an art that's hard to teach. A never clever word sets off an unsuspecting hurt and as you step back into line, a mob jumps to their feet". Can I be taught how to lie for personal gain? I mean, photoshopping a photo of two people kissing to ruin an assholes relationship is different (turns out he killed himself the next week, do I feel bad? I accomplished something), actually telling a lie, that's hard. Lying to my parents is easy, they'll believe anything (Here's hoping they don't read this!) But todays song is one of my favorites by The Offspring. I like the chorus. "Now dance, fucker dance, he never had a chance. And no-one even knew it was really always you." the second part changes after each verse, give me a sec to get it for you... "And now you steal away, till you come out today. Nice work you did, you're gonna go far kid" or, I guess that's the pre-chorus... FUUUUUUUUCCCCKKKKK. Here's the chorus; "With a thousand lies and a good disguise, hit 'em right between the eyes, hit 'em right between the eyes. When you walk away, nothing more to say, see the lightning in your eyes, see 'em running, for their lives" Maybe the songs not totally about lying, but now I've got that connection in my head that this song somehow represents my future. If you haven't seen the music video, it's kinda funny. He's given a golden guitar with the power to make people beautiful, and he uses it for personal gain. So in the end, the Goddess that gave him the guitar, uses her music on him and he disappears. He was greedy. Gods I hope I'm not like that after High school. Anyway, the song of the day is You're Gonna Go Far Kid by The Offspring, from their album Rise and Fall, Rage and Grace.

Now, you know the question readers, at least I hope you do.... What's your song of the day?

Music=Life

I'd Do Anything

This is one of my favorite songs. From the same Simple Plan album as I'm Just A Kid, No Pads, No Helmets, just Balls. You know something, I'm a coward. Instead of just telling Her to her face, I have to do it on a blog, under a pseudonym. Eventually the song I wrote will get recorded, and put on the radio and everyone will love it. And she'll turn on the radio in the car and hear it, and then there's a 50/50 chance she'd get it or even remember who I am. Anyway, here's the lyrics, I'll be pissed if the font changes again.

Another day is going by

I'm thinking about you all the time

But you're out there

And I'm here waiting

And I wrote this letter in my head

Cuz so many things were left unsaid

But now you're gone

And I can't think straight

This could be the one last chance

To make you understand

I'd do anything

Just to hold you in my arms

To try to make you laugh

Cuz somehow I can't put you in the past

I'd do anything

Just to fall asleep with you

Will you remember me?

Cuz I know

I won't forget you

Together we broke all the rules

Dreaming of dropping out of school

And leave this place

To never come back

So now maybe after all these years

If you miss me have no fear

I'll be here

I'll be waiting

This could be the one last chance to make you understand

And I just can't let you leave me once again

I'd do anything

Just to hold you in my arms

To try to make you laugh

Cuz somehow I can't put you in the past

I'd do anything

Just to fall asleep with you

Will you remember me?

Cuz I know

I won't forget you

I close my eyes

And all I see is you

I close my eyes

I try to sleep

I can't forget you

Nanana (....)

And I'd do anything for you

Nanana (....)

I'd do anything

Just to hold you in my arms

To try to make you laugh

Cuz somehow I can't put you in the past

I'd do anything

Just to fall asleep with you

Will you remember me?

Cuz I know

I won't forget you

I'd do anything

To fall asleep with you

I'd do anything

There's nothing I won't do

I'd do anything

To fall asleep with you

I'd do anything

Cuz I know

I won't forget you

So yeah, In case anybody is wondering where I find the lyrics so I don't have to type them out (I know, lazy hands...), hold that thought. Ok, that's better. I get the lyrics from smartlyrics.com and metrolyrics.com. I think this song could easily be mistaken as some sort of creeper message, I don't mean it that way I assure all of you. "I am so not a raper!" (Fucking Stepbrothers, dumbest movie EVER. Just sayin.). ANYTHING doesn't necessarily mean anything. Like, going psycho or something. That's just not cool. But hey, however you hear it readers. I thought about using The Reason by Hoobastank instead, but a friend of mine said this one would be better. Then I though Hey There Delilah by Plain White T's, but figured that would be stupid. So here's the song of the day. I'd Do Anything by Simple Plan, haven't seen the music video (or if there is one) yet, so yeah.

What's your song of the day readers?

Music=Life

Half-Truism

I FUCKING LOVE THIS BAND! Just thought I'd put that out there. I have yet to find a song by The Offspring that I don't like, and if you don't like them, LEAVE. Actually don't, I need the readers. I almost stabbed a kid at school for dissing The Offspring..... Okay, maybe that was a bit much, but fuck it. I don't really care what the song is about right now, not in the mood to interpret or translate into my own words. The lyrics are great though. The first few lines of the first verse and then everything after the first chorus, all good. Well, maybe I will put some stuff out. The first verse, the beginning of the first verse I mean, goes "One is for envy and one is for spite. The cuts in my heart, they show in your eyes" Maybe some girl hurt him emotionally. The heart could be an example of symbolism, usually emotion, love, y'know. Let me look up the definition of Envy really quick..... So envy is pretty much jealousy. So maybe some jealous chick saw him with one of his chick friends and said something that hurt him just in spite of that. That makes sense right? Whatever. Uh, the lines "You'll make it better, shake it off. It never mattered anyway" could go both ways. Either their relationship as friends or a couple or friends trying to become a couple never mattered, or the pain-inflicting part never mattered. Then the chorus, "If we don't make it alive, it's a hell of a good day to die. All our light that shines strong, only lasts for so long" Maybe making up, rebuilding the relationship. "If we don't make it alive" could be that their relationship is on the line and it might not survive. "All our light that shines strong, only lasts for so long" No matter what, they knew it was only temporary. Relationships are like food, it all expires sometime, when it's at it's ripest it can only get worse, and if not put on ice at a certain point may result in too much of a bond developing. Fuck all that, it's that mindset that fucked up my friendship with The Girl. Was a good simile though wasn't it? Anyway, Song of the day is Half-Truism by The Offspring, it can be found (along with all their other greatest songs) on their greatest hits album. If you were expecting something sappy for mothers day, you got screwed, sorry.

Readers, what's your song of the day?

Music=Life

If You Only Knew/The Pretender

This is a double, I didn't post anything all week because I'm a dumbass and said a few things I shouldn't've on Tuesday and lost the greatest friend anyone could have. And go ahead and accuse me of being a suck up because I know she'll read this, nothing wrong with it! :P The song for Tuesday is Definitely My Own Worst Enemy by Lit, A good song, and fairly relevant. Song of the Week, If You Only Knew by Shinedown. Not even gonna bother explaining. The song of the day though, EPIC. One of my favorite songs. The Pretender by Foo Fighters. When I was younger I used to think the chorus was "One of our fav's is not like the others, one of our fav's is not just another, one our fav's, your the pretender, one of favs will never surrender" (Fav's being an abbreviation for favorite, or fave.) I was way off! It's "What if I say I'm not like the others? What if I say I'm not just another one of your plays, you're the pretender. What if I say that I'll never surrender?" I like the song, I think it's about secrets, lies, friends, and not giving up on something you want or believe in. This song has cured me of my temporary "I'm done singing" thing, and I'm back, working on getting together a new band, right now it's just me and this kid Camron, along with my friend Young Neil, we might have a drummer, but we need a lead guitarist. "I'm the voice inside your head, you refuse to hear. I'm the face that you have to face, mirrored in your stare. I'm what's left. I'm what's right. I'm the enemy. I'm the hand that'll take you down, and bring you to your knees" Get in the way of my new goal, and I'll kill you :) Anyway, before I can focus on the band, I have to try and earn my friendship with The Girl back, for some reason she thinks I deserve a second chance, and for this I have a quote from Paramore's Misery Business "Second chances they don't ever matter, people never change". Looks like I have to prove Haley (Idk how to spell her name, the singer chick from paramore, her last name is Williams) wrong. She decided to give me a second chance, and for my sanity, I won't disappoint her.

So reader(s), what's your song of the day?

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Both Sides of The Story

So, the only thing on this that actually relates to the day so far is the chorus. The song is Both Sides of the Story by We Are The In Crowd, and I am really loving my typing skills today, I've only had to use the backspace button like twice so far! But anyway, the song is a duet, which as far as I know means there's two vocal parts. I don't know the singers names, but it's a good song. The chorus is "I found out finding out isn't the worst part
Don't believe it's just me
And I've found out
Do you really even have a clue?
You're not quite Satan, but I really think I hate you"

And another beautiful work of copy and paste from smartlyrics.com. I think it's about finding out that whoever you're with is cheating on you. Now, cheating is never okay. And I believe that if you have feelings for any other person while you're in a relationship is cheating. But that's not what relates to the day. The "I found out finding out isn't the worst part" could be applied to virtually any information. I found out I can't sing. I listened to a recording of myself, and I SUCK. So I''m led to believe that if what I hear is bad then what everyone else heard can only be worse. Did the size of the font seriously get smaller? what the fuck? Okay, that's better. So anyway, I've decided to stop trying to sing. And finding out isn't the worst part, it's knowing. So yeah. Song of the Day is Both Sides Of The Story by We Are The In Crowd, a song they performed at the 2010 Warped Tour, which I encourage you to buy the cd for, some great songs on there, and some not so great ones.

So readers, what's your song of the day?

Music=Life