When The Music Stops

I feel horrible. I feel bad because I'm afraid that I haven't learned anything from the past. It used to be that music always came first. Before family, before friends, before my health. I couldn't brush my teeth before I had a song going, let alone eat breakfast.

But what I'm really worried about is that I'll fail Rocket. I don't want to get to the point where one of us turns our back on the other because of my musical "addiction". When the music stops, I need to focus. She may distract me from everything else, but I won't let music distract me from her. The Song Of The Day is When The music Stops by Eminem, and it has almost nothing to do with what's going through my head right now.

I love Rocket, I do. And I love music just as much, which is a problem. I have this dream of being a famous rock star, but now there's the thought of a future with Rocket too, and I've seen the movies, read the interviews, heard the songs. You can't balance a relationship with your loved one, with a relationship with your lifestyle. Something has to change. So I don't know if the whole Rockstar lifestyle, always on the road and always busy with music or something, is the one for me. Sure Dave Grohl can make it work, and Gene Simmons did for nearly 30 years, but Gene Simmons is kinda a bad example. KISS is still around, but his relationship with Sharon, not so much. And that's what I'm talking about, I don't want to be like that. I don't want to get to the future where I have to choose between keeping a living and keeping a love. Because when it comes down to it, no matter how much you love your music, it's just another way to support yourself and your family and/or loved ones economically (again, not sure about the spelling of that word, but the Google spell check hasn't said anything about it yet so whatever.). Say I choose the music over her (I won't... Really, I won't... I hope I don't, I mean. fuck it.). What happens when the music stops for me and I've got nothing and nobody left but my words? I'm useless and going to die alone. And what happens to her if I choose The Music? I don't know, I'd like to think she'd move on and live an emotionally healthy lifestyle. But shit happens.

Only the Universe knows our fates Readers, and we are left to wonder what happens next, until it happens.

I know I'll choose Rocket, but the question is there, would she choose me if I left the rockstar life? I'd like to think that she would, I get that feeling from her. A real feeling, not just my brain convincing my heart. Readers, where will you be when the music stops?

Readers what's your song of the day?

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Down With The Sickness

Song of The Day is Down With The Sickness by Disturbed. Care to guess why? I'm still sick. Whoa, no way is this the first Disturbed song I've posted here... Apparently it is. WHAT? Even I'm surprised with that. Anyway, I'm sick, can barely breathe, and Rocket isn't online anymore so I'm going to bed.

Readers, what's your song of the day?

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Great Pretender

You ever read a book or a story, and the world around you disappears? Completely passes over your head as your mind takes you to that far away land where things are so much better than your reality? It happens to me all the time. Even when I'm listening to music. Somebody could trash everything around me and I wouldn't even blink unless contact was made. I am the Great Pretender. The Song of The Day is Great Pretender by John Frederik. It's from the sound track of the Yu-Gi-Oh! Movie. SHUT UP. IT WAS COOL WHEN I WAS EIGHT OKAY!?!

Anyway, it's a good song, and you should go look it up. Anyway, I'm sick and just sneezed all over my keyboard. So I'm going to go and clean that up and then take a shower to expel this disease from my body.

Readers, what's your song of the day?

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Chicks Dig Giant Robots

Song of The Day is Chicks Dig Giant Robots by Deathwish iX.

Look it up. You'll recognize it if you remember what Toonami was!

Make It Stop (Septembers Children)

I'm sick of it. I'm sick of walking through the halls of schools, grocery stores, even Wal-Marts, and seeing this idea run rampant. The idea that you can trash your fellow man just for their choice of sexuality. No, not even choice, just the way they are. Ladies, Gentleman, and those of unspecified gender, my topic for today is Homophobia in America and how it is reflected upon the youth of the country. Listen to this fucking song. Towards the end Tim MacElrath lists off the names of homosexual teens that killed themselves because our society refused to accept them. The Song Of The Day is Make It Stop (Septembers Children) by Rise Against, and it is about how homophobic assholes and bullies in high school push so many to suicide before they can even... Fuck this. Just don't fucking do it. Maybe you're just projecting your insecurities upon another because you're gay and are too much of a little chickenshit to come out with it. I have gay friends, and I'll defend them for who they are. Sure we use the word "gay" as an insult to anything we don't like sometimes, but there are other words. And I'm trying to stop calling things gay in an insulting fashion, because it's not right for me to do. Instead I've come up with my own little thing that I've been saying when I dislike something, FUCKING NAZI-CANCERSTICK PROPAGANDA BULLSHIT!!! See? Not once in that term did I use "gay" in a negative way. Because it's not a negative thing, it's somebodies lifestyle, and that's not saying you can say that to offend them, because if you are gay/ transsexual or whatever then it shouldn't bother you anyway. It's just a word. And it's you, it's what you feel on the inside isn't it? Not that I'm supporting the use of "gay" as an insult (see words above all this, if you just skipped down to this specific line), but I don't think that being called gay should bother you if you truly are.

Back to my message to all of the homophobes that might be reading this, stop being assholes. Just stop it. When the kid that you verbally, or even physically, assaulted kills themselves because they think that the rest of their life would be like what you did to them, will you feel accomplished? Content? Happy even, knowing that an innocent persons blood and death will forever stain your hands you pathetic sick fucks? I have a friend that has been talked out of suicide at least 4 times now because of people like you. And to the asshole that told my friend Wolfie that "all gays should be lined up and shot in the head", the ratio of homosexual to heterosexual at your school is 2:1, and those odds are NOT in your favor. If it helps, think of what will happen when people figure out that they can kill themselves in prison, after they've murdered those of you that tortured them for who they are, but I guess that would depend on how proud and arrogant one person can be.

In a way I guess all of this could be compared to the Salem Witch Trials. American society pressures you, and pressures you to admit that you're slightly different from the majority, even if you're not. And then, when you give up, you're persecuted for the rest of your life. I can't be the only one sick of seeing this happen to, not only the youth of our nation, but even grown men and women, just admitting to themselves and the world their feelings.

Readers, homophobia is a serious issue in todays world and should not be treated lightly. Regardless of where you are, or who you are, none of us are better than another just because of sexual preference. Look up Lady Gaga's speech called The Prime Rib of America (or something like that), it's one of the greatest speeches on Don't Ask Don't Tell and opposing homophobia ever written and spoken. Stand up for your fellow human beings, don't let homophobic ideas rule your mind, anybody who feels the need to trash another person just because of their sexuality is clearly not confident in the one that they follow now. Don't tolerate homophobia in your schools, on your streets, or in the hearts of those that you hold dear. How many must be killed with harsh words and baseball bats before America truly understands that a nation divided within itself cannot stand as one in a time of need?! MAKE IT STOP, MAKE THIS END, before our hatred towards eachother ends us.

Readers, what's your song of the day?

Music=Life

Issues

We all have our little problems. The voices in our heads. The nagging thoughts that don't go away. The annoying sisters that don't go away... Anyway, my theme for today is the mental state of America, and how our issues are destroying relationships and happiness around the country. What is the ruling factor in America readers? Money. Now, whoever has the most, doesn't worry about it. Whoever has the least, will always need more. Actually, I'm kinda short on time tonight so this is all for now. The Song of The Day is Issues by Escape The Fate.

Readers, what's your song of the day?

Music=Life

Perfect

To my Father. I'm sorry I forgot your birthday, but think of this as a balance. The year you forgot mine has flipped sides, and I can almost guarantee it won't happen again. I'm also sorry that I didn't stay with you in Pennsylvania. The reason why I left is because I had become what I didn't want to be. Sure, I learned to fight, to defend myself and my friends. I learned about honor and respect. I also learned who I wanted to be. I wanted to be a rocker. Not just another high school sports player. Not the wide receiver who scores the winning touchdowns for the teams. Not the wrestler who sees everyone as another enemy. I wanted to shape myself rather than have somebody else try to shape who I was going to be. Your influence, along with Brandi, David, Alex and Daisy, helped me to decide what is best for myself. I'm not wasting my time by doing what I want, I'm just trying to give you a reason to be proud of your son. And I haven't failed yet. This band is going to work. If I thought I could balance the Band, dating Rocket, sports, and good grades all on the same scale, then I'd try it. But I can't be perfect for everyone. I've tried, and somebody ends up getting hurt, emotionally and physically. I know you disapprove of my musical pursuit, and that I'd rather write poetry and songs rather than play football and watch sports, but our playbooks don't seem to agree. The song Of The Day is Perfect By Simple Plan.

Readers, what's your song of the day?

Music=Life

Kickstart My Heart

I'm pretty sure I died last night. Like, heart attack, stopped breathing, broken neck, suffocation, died. But she revived me with her kiss. Seeing as how there are individuals who do not approve of "extracurricular touching" that read this blogs posting, I won't say everything. But I wish I could, not even for you Readers, but just so I could relive it through words. Apparently I didn't even change before going to sleep last night, cuz I woke up wearing the proof that last night wasn't just some dream. Well, that and a couple marks that still hurt a little bit. I have a few rules, but the horoscope thing says that there's an exception to every rule. Not that my mind is that far ahead already, just saying. Getting kinda hard to think, my mind is drifting back to last night. So, yesterdays song of the day was Kickstart My Heart by Motley Crue. The perfect driving song, and a song about speed. Can't stop a rocket, not even if I wanted to. Oh the dance? haha. Well. You'll find out sometime.

Readers, what was your song of the day for yesterday?

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The Last Fight

The Last Fight, Tears Don't Fall, I knew it would be Bullet For My Valentine Day, aside from the fact that I woke up with Hungry Like The Wolf by Duran Duran stuck in my fucked up little mind. I didn't expect it to be this one though. An overdose would have still been way easier, but then I wouldn't have any more time with Rocket, and that would have not been cool at all. But this should be the last time that I and The Girl combat eachother with verbal arrows, some sharp enough to pierce even her emotional armor... I'm always worried that Rocket will read these things and think that she's a second or something. True, The Girl came first. True, I had feelings for her. But previous events had changed that, and even IF she told the truth and wasn't playing me, I still don't trust her as much as I used to, and the emotion towards her is dead in me, rotting somewhere deep inside the recesses of my twisted soul that I don't have (kinda sounds like a Disturbed song). Rocket, you're not a second. You're not a consolation prize. You're you, and that's all you have to be. I even accept the voices in your head with you ;) Now, I'm going to go waste time on the internet while playing guitar and drowning my thoughts in some old school Black Sabbath (Ozzy's Sabbath) and Motley Crue.

Readers, what's your song of the day? And what's your take on my situation? (not asking if I made the right "Choice", because it wasn't a choice, it was a feeling that I acted upon.)

Music=Life, my mind=fucked

Nothin Good About Goodbye

Nothing makes sense anymore. Feelings conflicting in ways they shouldn't. I love Rocket, I know I do. Then why does it hurt so much to lose The Girl? Why does it feel like I have a permanent knot around my throat, restricting my breath. I couldn't think all day. The sadness and excitement from the events of yesterday. The most incredible first date, turned into the worst night I could've imagined. All because of my ignorance. The fact that I didn't believe. But it's too late, The Girl is done with me. And all I can offer is a stupid fucking song. I allow myself only as much sadness as I can handle for the moment, stowing the rest in the back of my mind to be released in a pathetic flood of tears during the night. No matter how much I outwardly blame this all on her, I know it started with me. I should've never told her that I loved her. Should've never made a promise I knew I would break. The Song of The Moment is Nothin' Good About Goodbye by Hinder. Even if both of us fell from the same cliff, we reached the bottom a day apart, and I'm sorry for it. "No need for bloodshed", you were right, but that's why they make painkillers. Unfortunately, I woke up. Guess I can't just give up because I was an ignorant asshole, but thank the Gods that I did, because I've got Rocket. I keep comparing it to what The Girl did to me. Went out with one of my best friends when she knew how I felt about her, and later on told me that it was just so she didn't hurt me. I don't know whether or not to believe her about that, but it doesn't matter what I think now does it? Because I've lost one of my greatest friends, and somebody I could always talk to. She shouldn't've been mad that I found somebody, after she was telling me her plan to find somebody to go out with at her new school. Well now there's nothing holding her back.

Readers, these are the words to describe my song of the moment choice. The song of the day will be better. Just know that currently I hold no malice towards The Girl, just anger towards myself for what I said, but not what I did. I found somebody that I can trust and love. And I shall not apologize for that, only my words.

Music=Life

Don't Stop Believin'

I searched my phone, Pandora, Jango, and the rest of my music gathering resources to find the song for today. I thought about a couple songs, but in the end, I found the one for today. Ladies and gentleman, the Song of The Day is Don't Stop Believin' by Journey. So, The Girl read that post about how I figured out her little 2 year (was nearly 3 years) game of mind-fuckery in which she played my emotions like the devil plays a fiddle. So I went off last night, and now she's saying that we should stop talking to eachother. Okay! I'm not the one that lied about caring for the last 2 years. Everything I felt for you was true, and you destroyed that. But anyway. That's not why this is the song of the day.

Small town girl and city boy, meet, romance. Or at least that's what we assume, the song doesn't tell us their story. But a chapter was certainly written today Readers. Rocket came over, we went to the air show, kissed, watched a movie, talked, walked around. She's so media deprived. I tried describing Love as an action earlier, but it's not as complicated as I thought before. It's as simple as a poke. It was a perfect day, and I hope to have more with her. I'm a really bad kisser though. Seriously. And fuck off Vic, so I took your advice, don't be all self righteous about it. Anyway, the afternoon was perfect, but now I'm dealing with The Girl, she says I'm wrong despite the evidence.

Readers, what's your song of the day?

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My Town

Not the song of the day, just the Song of The morning. It's a good song. The chorus and bridge are the only meaningful parts though. Look it up. DO IT. NOW. WHY AREN'T YOU DOING IT NOW?

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Choose Your Fate

Ever think about the future? Experience Dejavu? Any thought, prediction, or experience can be changed in an instant. Anything that you want the future to be, can be. This coming from a believer that we don't actually have a choice in our lives probably doesn't mean anything, but they aren't words for me to live by, they're for you Readers. Each one of you has the choice to change what you don't like in yourself, and thus change your fate. Except death, that's for everyone. Except those immortalized by word and song. The Song of The Day is Choose Your Fate by Escape The Fate. And now that we've gone over that, I have a change of subject. Once again Readers, I ask you to describe love. As an action. I think it's as simple as living. But the word love could also be a situation. I picture a couple, meeting in high school or college. Dating for a few years. Then on a cruise, lying side by side in the night (not talking about sex, just sleeping together, calm the fuck down readers. I'm describing love after all, not LUST.). Then one not being allowed to see the other on their deathbed. The reason I say that is this, if you love someone, do you really want their last memory of you to be a weak and feeble person, being kept alive by machines? I wouldn't want that in her mind.

Anyway, Readers what's your song of the day?

Music=Life

Check Yes Juliet

So, bought mine and Rocket's tickets to the Homecoming dance today at lunch, and then we went down to the gas station and got some pizza and mango sweet tea. Well, I got pizza, she got popcorn shrimp or chicken or something that had to do with popcorn, but it wasn't actually popcorn. Anyway, I can assume that The Girl read my previous post because tonight she was being all sweet and gave me some "daydream" she had that I was dying and she cried or some shit, probably in the hopes that I would say something sweet back to her like I usually would. But the words and actions that I observed previously show me that I'm most likely right. Anyway, the Song of The Day (for 9/16/11) is Check Yes Juliet by We The Kings. Going to sleep now.

Readers, what's your song of the day?

Music=Life

Diary of Jane

MORE BREAKING BENJAMIN???? Yes, now stfu and love it. You ever read a girls diary? I haven't, unless you count Rocket's blog. ;) So remember The Girl? The one that I loved and had plans to meet after High School? I understand everything now, or at least I think I do. See, everyone knew my friends, the ones that I thought were my friends I mean, and at some point, she had went out with all of them (not at the same time *as far as I know*) What she tells me now is her plan for this new school she's at. Find somebody that will give her a good reputation in the school, and date them. Thus boosting her social status. I was useless because very few people actually liked being seen with me, So she thought it would be fun to fuck with head and emotions. But whatever, there's a chance I'm wrong and what's been "going on" between the two of us for the last 2 years isn't just some elaborate charade that she might even believe. But with her almost going out with a 12th grade pedophile, I'm almost done caring. Not that I'm only going out with Rocket because I'm free! That would be horrible! NO! I'm going out with her because she's amazing, and because each possible relationship deserves a chance. So I asked her out to Homecoming, and she said yes ^_^ ANIME-POWERUP-EPIC-FACE. Like, level up, you beat the final boss with 99 lives left and zero deaths in game and unlocked the hardest achievements epic face. I asked my mom for 20 bucks so I could buy 2 tickets, just in case her grandparents won't give her money to buy one. Even then, I'll just give her the ticket so she could just pocket the money they give her. Anyway, The Song of The Day is Diary of Jane by Breaking Benjamin.

Okay, so Homecoming, you're usually expected to dance right? The only dances I know are a two-step type thing, and fucking mosh pit rave. And I don't know what kind of music they'll play! So I'm only useful in a slow dance (or a modern pop song with a deep enough bass and slow lines.) or if they start playing hard rock or metal... I've got to go eat dinner. Y'know, the meal after lunch.

Okay, I'm back from dinner. it was amazing. Gotta get the whole band together sometime this weekend, don't know how though, I'll meditate on it and ask the cards.

Readers, what's your song of the day?

Music=Life

Give Me A Sign

Yes yes, more Breaking Benjamin. "Oh they're so outdated, and Ben sounds so bad live" GO TO HELL. You know who's outdated? All of the little anti-mainstream hipster chicks that think they're too good for good music. Not every big band sucks. Just what you listen to because you focus on the negative. Anyway, not what this post is about. The Song of The Day is Give Me A Sign by Breaking Benjamin. So, give me a sign Rocket! I mean, stop with the signs and get to the damn point! So, I didn't want to post this, becuz I don't want to listen to the complaints. But only 3 people that read this know me. I asked Rocket out to Homecoming. I mean, the signs are throwing me off, and then when we talk in person she acts like nothing and tells me to fuck off when I get inquisitive. I was telling you about my accent before right? The British accent that I shouldn't have but I do. I know she thinks it's awesome, no matter how much she makes fun of me for it. Anyway, you should look up the song. And the music video. It's actually a really sad song about death and losing someone you love and care about (which relates to another situation I find myself in that I won't go in to. Sorry.). But I picked it for the title. Just like a couple other songs. Sorry. Anyway, when I ask the question, you're supposed to post your answer in the comments section below. Let's try that now. Here's an example of what your comment should look like, I'll show you with my own.

Give Me A Sign by Breaking Benjamin, becuz of this really awesome chick that keeps throwing me in circles with the situation. -VI

Now, Readers what's your song of the day?

Now you try.... Very good!

Music=Life

Firefly

Ever watch the sci-fi television series Firefly? It was cool. And I love the soundtrack. But they cancelled the production of a second season to make a movie instead. The movie was okay, but not as good as the show. But that's not what this post is about. How many of you stopped reading after the first line I can only imagine! HAHA! The Song Of The Day is Firefly by Breaking Benjamin. Rocket, you're a lot like them, but I caught your lie. And You know I did. But that's okay. It's all solid. But I can't help until you verbalize your thoughts. Just like with The Singer, she needs to tell the dude herself. You've nothing to be embarrassed about, as far as I know. But until further notice, I'm promised to another. I'm sorry. Truly, I am. So right now maybe you're thinking "Fuck you Firefly", but I haven't lost my light, I'm just waiting for the batteries to recharge.

Readers, what's your song of the day?

Music=Life

No More Sorrow

Make the lies stop. I can't take it, I can't handle it. Now, I'm liar, and a damn good one. But the best lies are based off of truths. And it's because of this that I never forget one of my lies. But these people, the lies are always changing. There are rules to these things. Are you lost in your lies? Do you honestly think I don't realize when the story changes every time I ask? Just tell the truth. The Song of The Day is No More Sorrow by Linkin Park.

On a side note, my english accent is coming back and I haven't the faintest idea why. I should really be asleep right now, it's like 10:30 or some shit. Whatever. Gonna wear my badass new ring tomorrow along with my spiked pyramid. I don't know why, but I always seem to play better when wearing a necklace or chain. Haven't tried a dog collar yet, and don't think I will any time soon. A bunch of people in the crowds I hang with. Which reminds me! This chick I know, we'll call her Rocket, cuz when she has one of those fucking Monster drinks, she goes off dude. Like, speed or some shit. She get's really hyper is what I'm trying to say. Anyway, Rocket had my name written in Nordic Runes on her left arm. As soon as I saw them I knew what they spelled out. VIRUS. I've known the basic runes for years. But I played dumb, and lied. And I feel bad, cuz apparently this chick really likes me. And I like her too. But it would feel wrong. Because I still have feelings for The Girl. And going out with Rocket while I still have feelings for The Girl would make me a cheater by my definition. But The Girl has some 12th grade pedophile she can turn to. And for all I know she's just been fucking with my head the last 3 years. I don't know. I'll wait a while. Find out the situation with The Girl, if she's done with me, then I send her the song and we don't speak again until the Pedo-School Boy rapes her or some shit. And Then I have to cut off his dick. I think That should be the punishment for all male sex offenders. You raped a school girl? Lose your dick.

I talk to Rocket tomorrow about all this. And then, I'll try talking to The Girl.

Readers, what's your song of the day?

Music=Life

(was supposed to be posted on 9/12/11, but people are watching my site, so I have to wait to post things after dark. FUCK YOU MONITORS!!!! "I fight for the users" my ass!)

You Had Me At Hello

The Song Of The Day is You Had Me At Hello by A Day To Remember. If you went to FWBHS, then you know why because apparently everybody knew how I felt towards her before I did.

Readers, what's your song of the day?

Music=Life

Don't Let Go

"Just be yourself I tell myself and myself tells me we can be anybody else." That's why this is the song of the day. "What is the song of the day?" you're probably not asking. Well, The Song Of The Day is Don't Let Go by Deep Purple. And the reasoning behind that is who I am at this new place. I am Virus, not anybody else. Not my given name, that's not who I am here. I had the opportunity to be somebody else, and I grabbed that opportunity by the balls (don't worry, it was wearing pants.)

And I have to say, I'm much more badass here than I was in Florida. I'm not afraid to call the football players total idiots when they can't read a 3 letter word like EMU. pronounced ee-mew. not ee-moo. FUCKING RETARDS. By the time you're a junior in high school, you should know how to read and have a basic knowledge of the english language. Unless you're from another country. Then I would greatly appreciate it if you learned to speak english. A little bit more than "thank you come again" (wow that was racist.)

Anyway, Don't Let Go by Deep Purple is an amazing song, look it up. If not for the guitar and lyrics, then for the piano.

Readers, what's your song of the day?

Music=Life

Tall Cans In The Air (Remix)

Okay, let's talk movies. What's your favorite movie? Mine is Bulletproof Monk, it is, and will be. FOR THE REST OF ETERNITY. So The Song of The Day is Tall Cans In The Air (Remix) by The Transplants. It's amazing, and from the movies sound track. So, sorry for this unreasonably short post, but piss off. I'm watching a movie ;)

Readers, what's your song of the day?

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Savior

Ever have that song that just reminds you of every awesome moment with your friends? This is mine. The Song of The Day is Savior by Rise Against, because this is the song that no matter where we were, what time it was, or who we were with, whenever this song came on, you were guaranteed to hear my voice and two others. This song, regardless of whatever it means to you, and ignoring that the music video is a bunch of furries in a mosh pit type thing, reminds me that there are perfect times in the world, and they are usually found and experienced with close friends. And that sounded way to sexual.

On to my daily life of today. I was given a spider by this chick that everyone either calls Waffles, or Nasferatu (she bites. hard.) This is the same chick that runs up and hugs me every time she sees me. But today, I'm pretty sure she bit me. There's a bite mark, and nobody else was that close to my shoulder today... Anyway, The spider is SILVER. A SILVER SPIDER. Anyone know anything about silver spiders? Cuz I'm like a fucking expert on spiders and have never heard of or seen anything like this thing before. And no, I do not think that being bitten and hugged daily by some girl will affect things with The Girl. So shut up and don't jinx it.

One more thing before our usual question, go to youtube, like right now, and look up the video Don't Hug Me I'm Scared. You will shit yourself and cry because of the Handy-Dandy Notebook from Hell. Scariest shit ever. SERIOUSLY.

Now readers, what's your song of the day? (I fixed it to where peoples can actually comment. So ANSWER THE QUESTION. if I says please? PLEEEEEEAAAAASEE?)

Music=Life

Iris

I have no idea why, but I can't get Iris by The Goo Goo Dolls out of my head. It's stuck in there right next to Girls Not Grey by AFI. Just thought I'd share that little bit. Goodnight Readers,

What song is stuck in your head right now?

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If It Means A Lot To You

Can I have a drumroll? No? Go To hell. This is the one hundredth post! BITCHES I LASTED LONGER THAN YOU THOUGHT I WOULD! Granted I should have over 365 different posts right now as I've been doing this for over a year now, but I missed a lot okay? On to main event of the night!

How many of you have a goal? A dream? An object of your desire? I don't know your goals, and to be honest, I don't care about them. There are 6 people that I will help to achieve their goals. My band, my friends Victor and Camron, and The Girl. All their stuff is just as important, if not more so, as mine. And my goal? Just to see The Girl again. To actually try the next time. Which brings me to my Song of The Day. The Song OF the Day is If It Means A Lot To you by A Day To Remember. Victor said to me once that he thinks this song fits me. The first time I heard it, all I could picture was this happening to me. I'm off somewhere making people sing and feel my music, and my relationship is dying. I didn't need to go to the show, but I wanted to. And because of that, she leaves. That's what I see whenever I hear this song. The Future. Are there songs that make you see your future as it could be? Not what you want, but what could happen. Our futures are whatever we strive to make them. If you stick to your goals, stay on the right path, and don't get distracted, you will have bettered yourself and (hopefully) achieved your goal. I will achieve mine. Through practice and mastering the skills and methods of rock and the channeling of spiritual energy through music, I will be on the road to see her again. To form an actual relationship, one that isn't just over texts.

Readers, don't fuck up. Cuz everything after that moment that you wreck is going to seem a lot harder. Now, What's your song of the day?

Music=Life